Life is like a TREASURE!!!

too many thought in my mind

2012-01-29T07:00:00.000-08:00

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happy new year 2012

2012-01-01T17:57:00.000-08:00

Salam and Hi!

HI ladies and gentlemen... Happy new year.. May everything comes naturally happiness and prosperity....

I had start my new year with a blast family thing and with my loves one.... It was planned but it when more that what i had planned.... ( i am damn superb Happy for it)

planning for the future in this year is another progress for my life and for more happiness....

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letter for Late Aina Shireen

2011-12-01T17:16:00.001-08:00

Palalda, Roussillon, France.

29 novembre 2011.

My dearest Nina,

I thought you had everything you wanted in this world when I saw you as a married-woman and never did I know that Time was what you would lack most one day.

Thank you for being a sister to me when I didn't know exactly what was a sister. Thank you for being that little sister I thought I could never have. Thank you for teaching me what it was like to have a sister.

It is understandable now that one of us will miss the appointment which we had set for next year a few weeks ago. I don't know when, but hopefully you would set aside a table for us, and wait for me, wherever you may be. Upon my arrival, we would then have many memories and news to share with each other.

Farewell little sister. You shall always be remembered in my World. Please remember me in yours or I will be the saddest of all the people in both worlds. Thank you for being the little sister whom I have always wanted in your short life. Goodbye for now.

Love Always,

Darin

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innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun

2011-11-28T22:05:00.000-08:00

Al-Fatihah...

Tuhan itu maha adil, maha mengetahu, maha penyayang, maha mengatur dan segalanya terletak pada kekuasaanNya....

Alhamdulillah, kita masih dikurniakan masa untuk menerima waktu yang dipinjamkan di dunia ini untuk mengenali dan memberi serta menolong dan beramal terhadapNya....

Dalam masa dua hari terasa begitu cepat masa berlalu dan daku di berikan satu pengalaman yang tidak ternilai yang telah ku pelajari....

masih dalam sayu dan terkejut di atas pemergian Arwah.. tetapi tuhan sudah mengatur segalanya.. Arwah pergi dalam keadaan yang tenang dan segala urusan pengebumian diatur dengan sempurna..

Ya Allah kau tempat kan Arwah digolongan ahli-ahli syurga seseungguhnya arwah telah mnejlankan tugas sebagai ibu yang kuat menjaga anaknya yang istimewa ini... Ya Allah dikau kuatkan semangat Bonda Arwah untuk menjaga nyawa yang telah dilahirkan buat teman hidup beliau.... Ya Allah dikau sempurnakan, tunjukkan lah jalan yang benar buat suami Arwah untuk mnejalankan hidup beliau dan menyara dua nyawa buat teman beliau seumur hidup... Ya Allah kau kuatkan dan sihatkan tubuh anak-anak kecil yang kini dikenali sebagai anak piatu itu... Ya Allah kau bukakan hati buat kami insan-insan di dunia ini untuk sentiasa bersyukur dan berkongsi kasih buat yang memerlukan.. Ya Allah kau jauhkan sifat-sifat yang kurang elok terhadap kami.... PadaMu sahaja Ya Allah kami berserah....

Al-Fatihah...

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on weekend

2011-10-17T22:49:00.000-07:00

It have been such a lovely weekend... I feel so wonderful having surrounded with my love one..!!!!

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repost!

2011-10-12T16:39:00.000-07:00

Mimpi itu dream kan?

Lets try to do it in MAlay...

setakat yang saya ingat, saya rasa dah berzaman berkongsi 'everything' dengan pujangga ni...

sunggu tak pernah rasa letih.. tapi tak taw lah dia.... hehehe....

masih seronok, masih panas, masih gedik, masih manje, masih in love... and real love..!!!!

hurmm... hari-hari ada nafas sayang tak pernah rasa... takotnye kalau ada yang taw 'how he treat me!'... Herpp.... thats mine... belongs to me taw!!!! Bak kata adik waktu dia merajuk... xnk xnk xnk xnk xnk xnk xnk xnk xnk.. pegi main jauh-jauh!!!

aduh... mimpi kini masih mimpi.. tapi bila kena cubit, terantuk kepala kat pintu kereta rasa sakit... hehehehe.... everyday bila nak tidor terfikir semua fairytales... wow.. kenapa dulu tak pernah fikir macam ni...???? and bila bangun, mata tak buka lagi tapi dah tersenyum and fikirkan pujangga manis yang terpahat di hati..!!!! Owww... dia sangat teristimewa buat ku..!!!!

Cepat-cepat-cepat-cepat.... itu je lah slogan yang ada hari-hari bila aku sakat dia, atau aku disakat..... again tak pernah terfikir and rasa this situation.... what i pray is what i get? should i believe in my prayers..???? hurmm.... itu lah dia.. pemikiran kita ni walaupun tak boleh dilihat dan nampak, tapi kita boleh rasa kan... its al in our mind.. apa yang kita fikir itulah dia yang akan jadi..

so..

hari-hari aku nak fikir benda yang indah je.... tapi bukan fikir untuk hari esok.. aku nak fikirkan in advance so that it will come true... its just like a dream right... and you will always prepare...

i know iknow.. tak elok mengharap terlampau tinggi.. tapi ia juga tidak salah untuk mengharap and you will always prepare yourself right... pasti ada cara lain.... cara yang yang lebih sesuai atau lebih menarik... oh.. i like!!!!

to have a man in your life that will be forever... wow!!!! i just can imagine it.... looking at old couples still holding hand.. giving kisses and hugs to their children yang dah besar panjang... sweet... that is love right..!!!!

well, not every marriage is a success one...but there must be reason whay is that happening... like papa always advice me.. of coz he wants the best in me... and mama always being so queit because she wants me to learn by myself.. and i trust she always there with me no matter what..!!! and my brother yang pura-pura tak sayang tapi i know we always miss each other...*kak nana pun tak ngaku kat awak, adik*

time may pass by so far.. tapi aku masih punya banyak mimpi yang perlu dikecapi.. to have a great job and make papa and mama proud for who i am.... to makesure i can treat my family the best holiday ever...to have my own family which i can make my family to grow in bigger circle.... to have my own responsibility to show that i able to do things wisely... to learn more about life.. and appreciate my life...

but...

aku perlu ingat semua yang berlalu itu bukan saja satu perkara yang buruk, teruk, sakit... tapi aku percaya itu adalah liku-liku hidup yang buat aku punai pengalaman untuk jadi lebih baik dan tidak mengulangi perkara yang sama.. tapi berusaha dan bersungguh-sungguh untuk achieve something and always try to be the best.. eventhough its hard for you....

**banyak nye bebel today.. maybe some shooting star drop on me last night that make me talk a lot...!!!!

tapi...

im really in love with you.... you just so wonderful that i cant just lose you... i cant describe what i attract bout you so much.. tapi untuk berjauhan dengan you, susah sekali sayang.... you cant look at me that i just can stop seeing you and visit you..!!!! sayang kamu sangat!!!!

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#2 Manusia pelbagai ragam

2011-10-10T01:44:00.000-07:00

manusia pelabagi rupa

aku kini berada di alam yang penuh dengan kecantikan
tetapi ada kecantikan itu berkekalan...
kecantikan itu adalah sempurna?
ia cantik di mata aku tapi mungkin tidak dimata orang lain
ia cantik dimata orang lain tapi tidak di mataku
apatah lagi jauh di dalam hatiku

kenapa ini semua berlaku....
kerana kita sendiri yang sempurna tapi berlagak seperti kita sahaja yang
sempurna..
bodoh.. bongok.. banggang..
cermin diri sendiri... kalau masih tak sedar
memang ko ni jenis bangsa tak sedar diri
yang hanya suka akan kecantikan..
kecantikan yang ko ingat cantik sangat tu..
orang lain tak nampak..
bertambah canntik ko rasa kat diri ko tu..
sebernanya bertambah banyak orang lain nampak perwatakkan ko yang
sebernanya bertopengkan kecantikan yang di buat-buat...

kau pandai, kau bijak aku tahu tapi kau dah salah gunakannya
aku pun tak faham kenapa kau berfikir dengan cara tu
kenapa Tuhan kau buat dia begitu... aku kesian tapi aku sendiri lemas
dalam diri aku sendiri.....
Aku sangat terkejut akan apa yang dia lakukan..
aku rasa aku pun boleh buat begitu tapi aku tak sangup
kerana aku tahu batas-batas nya....
apa lah guna kita tunjuk kehebatan kita....
siapalah kita di dunia ini...
mungkin di dunia pinjam ini kita lah yang di angungkan
tapi di dunia seterusnya berani kah kita berkata begitu..
YA ALLAH... takutnya aku untuk berkata lebih....
berilah aku kekuatan utuk berhadapan dengan kecantikan ini...
kecantikan yang dibuat sehingga bisu mataku dan pedih mulut ku.....

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#1 - karya dulu

2011-10-10T01:41:00.000-07:00

it has been so long i didnt update my blog....

i have few things to share.. this notes i have done it in my early years of schooling....

:)

Kejujuran

setiap apa yang kita lakukan biarlah jujur kerana kejujuran
itu terlalu penting dalam sebuah kehidupan.
Tanpa kejujuran hidup sentiasa menjadi mainan orang oleh itu jangan tetarik
kepada seseorang kerana parasnya sebab keelokan paras dapat menyesatkan.
Jangan pula tertarik kepada kekayaan kerana kekayaan dapat memusnahkan
kita. Tertariklah pada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum, kerana
hanya senyum yang dapat membuathari-hari yang gelap menjadi cerah ibarat kata
orang, setiap bunga mawar pasti ada durinya.

dari kesusahan itu perolehi kesengan dan kebahagian, seperti durian berduri
kerana sedap isinya, kulit manggis pahit sebab manis di dalamnya dan bunga ros
brduri kerana harum baunya.. dan dalam hidup kamu dan menjadi sebahagian
daripada kamu,tetapi atas sebab tertentu dia terpaksa pergi, jangan terlalu
sedih, terimalah kenyataan itu dan sekurang-kurangnyadia pernah membahagiakan kamu
tetapi, apabila ada yang datang jangan biarkania berlalu pergi dan jika esok
kalau ia masih bertandang, jangan harap ia akan datang kembali dan hargailah
selagi ia masih ada.

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The pantry

2011-09-26T21:31:00.000-07:00

Tea time *feel so perfect*

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tearsdown

2011-09-23T00:30:00.000-07:00

This is like karma....

I was not like you think? But now you are telling me that..
how sad am I..? I have change a lot but this is now enough...
it makes me cry hard! really hard!

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muslimah fashion!

2011-09-22T18:25:00.001-07:00

A fashion designer. It's my ambition since I was in high school! I love designing, I do. Even though I'm doing English but I will not let anything stop me from having my own boutique or maybe have my own clothing line. It is fun to involve in the fashion world. I'm not saying that I'm a fashionable person. NO. I am so not but I enjoy seeing people wear beautiful clothes. Representing themselves. Fashion is how you're tell the world about who you are without saying a word. My fashion icons are, Hana Tajima. She is incredible. Oh and also Sue Anna Joe. She's a photographer, an awesome mom and a person who knows how to wear awesomely. Last but not least, Yuna and also Dian Pelangi. These ladies wear a hijab yet can pull a very gorgeous and stunning look.

Yunalis Zarai

Sue Anna Joe

Hana Tajima

Dian Pelangi

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YOU!

2011-09-22T18:24:00.001-07:00

You, my significant other.

Too many words to describe you, one word will never be enough.

You're sweet, charming, calm, funny, lovely, caring, protective and the list goes on.

How lucky I am to have you.

How lucky I am to be yours.

Before I met you, I gave up on love.

Why? Because it hurts me so much until I can't stand straight.

Until I can't keep my head up high.

I was lost, drowned in my own miserable feelings.

My world was once dull, he took away all the colours in my life.

I was weak, too weak to face this cruel life.

Miracle happened, you came into my life unexpectedly.

I'm so glad you did.

You appear just like a dream to me, an absolute sweet dream.

You're the one that I want.

You're the one that I need.

You're the one that I've been waiting for.

You give colours to my life.

You light up my life.

You fill me up with your love.

You'll be there for me, you'll always catch me when I fall.

You make me believe that I'm not alone.

Thank you God, for sending me an angel.

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g.e.r.a.m

2011-09-19T06:52:00.000-07:00

I was really in mood today.. but end up I was not really in mood...

feel like eating pills and make myself drowsy...

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thing you must know

2011-09-14T04:38:00.000-07:00

I want to be someones everything. I want to be all they think about, all they want. I want them to love me for me and not for the person they see when i'm dressed up for parties. I want them to accept my flaws and learn to love them. I want them to trust me, to come to me whenever they feel sad or happy. I want them to talk to me when they're mad at me, not ignore me and completely avoid me. I want them to consider me as their best friend as well as their girlfriend. I want a real relationship, one with fights and screaming. One with tears and laughter, i don't want what you see on tv because at the end of the day, those relationships are fake. But most of all, I want a relationship with someone who will always be there for me and never give up on

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no reason to be mad

2011-09-11T08:37:00.000-07:00

well..

I deserved It..

Now Im not teaching myself a good lesson so "padan muka" with myself.....

If you lost the attention its all you problem..

It may happen that you going to lose the attention...

You may feel it..

but thats what I feel...

actually it might be a test for you....

Wana you have to think more positive and be a positive person...!!!!

You lose your positive mind you may lose ALL..!!!!

Think and dont be mad ... your mad for yourself....

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September

2011-09-10T20:26:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,

HI September... Bye-bye August... In September I hope for more better than August and the other months....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.. Maaf zahir Batin....

Not to say that I had a bad month but Im just looking towards more better months in this better years.. By the way tup tap tup tap.. We are almost doing preparation to leave this year and welcoming next year.. It was a quick right...

This year so far have taught me a lot since I realize on how difficult to control my own life... I know now what always mama and papa said... And others do advice me also...

I know sometime Im being so Lazy, naughty and deaf to all advices... But I do appreciate it.. If not I won't have a job or no one will love me...

speaking of job and love... everything is getting tougher now... Maybe its all because of me... Why I have to do that.. I have to keep on focusing to be the best and control emotions in delivering it..

Its difficult.. BUt I have to .. cause I want to move on in the life.. soon Im going to face more than this... I hope my loves one will always support me and will not give up to correct me if Im wrong.. I'm just to afraid if i lost them... * it will not happen right*

:) Sharing is caring... But not all that you share will be cared..!!!!

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Tanda-tanda kerinduan

2011-08-27T15:08:00.000-07:00

Dimulakan dengan :

Teringat semua benda yang dilakukan bersama ( nama restoran, gelak tawa, wajah, gurauan, bauan, kata-kata trademark)
tersengih sorang bila nampak something yang sangkut paut dengan orang dirindui
mesej tanpa henti di silang seli dengan pangilan
mula nak mms atau ceritakan situasi
kemana-mana teringat je
mula bercerita tentang kisah manis pada teman ( a'a kalau sayang saya ada dia pun mesti suka yang ini, tapi sayang kata sini lagi bagus, xpe la saya beli dengan sayang saya nanti, sayang saya kata ikut sini lag cepat....and more... sayang saya ni... sayang tu...
tetiba risau bila dia lambat reply mesej atau senyap lama-lama *padahal dia pi tolong mak masak and tolong abah di halaman pastu dia penat and tertidur* - aku yang kecoh, bagus la dapat future husband yang pentingkan ibu bapa, untung saya :) -
mula mesej bertalu-talu macam karangan sebab nak attention... *padahal terdetik dalam hati perasan jeles.. hehehe ni semua hantu rindu lah..*
nak rasa and biasakan diri makan apa yang sayang suke sebab dia takkan nampak rupa kita macam mana waktu cuba sedaya upaya ikut style dia * hehehe.. sebenarnya nak dapat bonus point boleh makan kongsi2 nanti* -cubaan untuk menambah bonus point dalam hati dia...-
Bila dah cuba, makin rindu..... Aaaarrrrrggghhhhhhhhh *asal dia xde je semuanye kita buata ada kene mengena dengan sayang*
Nak keluar pun terfikir kat dia..* nak dia tahu kita ke mana and with sape * -jujur-
Nak tidur pun kita bagitaw * sebab nak mimpi indah bersama* -Kongsian-
Nak makan pun kita roger *baru lah bertambah selera* -Selera-
Nak buat apa-apa pun kita bagitaw *baru lah sweet* -keserasian-
and banyak lagi benda yang buat aku rindu sangat kat sayang...!!!!!

Sayang bila kita rindu susah nak express sebab dia sangat menghantui diri... kadang-kadang sampai melampau sangat... Maaf jika ada sampai tak mampu nak control kerinduan saya terhadap sayang..!!!!!!!!

Sayang...... sayyaaannnggg......... NOW NI DAH RINDU LAH NI...!!!!

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take it easy!!!

2011-08-27T14:00:00.000-07:00

At least Im honest... I dont flirt... Im just being me.... Please dont advertise yourself so much but if you like it I will help you to do it.... But thats you and this is me.. I can say much.. at least Im honest and I dont lie.. and you always can check on me but I dont really check on you so much.. but sometime I found something fishy but again I just leave it a side...!!!!

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syawal menjelma

2011-08-25T20:11:00.000-07:00

salam manis semua...

Terasa sudah ramdahan hampir berakhir untuk tahun ini.. dan syawal pula kian terasa pabila ramai yang mula berpusu-pusu mencari kelengkapan hari raya... suasana di kota sibuk dengan kereta kerana persiapan... tetapi masih ada yang menghargai malam malam ramadhan Alhamdulillah teruskan muslimin dan muslimah...

Banyak lagi masa yang ada... terasakan jangan lah cepat berlalu ramadhan kerana masih tidak cukup waktu untuk kami semua melipat kali ganda kan amaln kami.. belum tentu juga ia sempurna walaupun di lakukan setiap malam tetapi Tuhan itu maha Mengetahui dan Memahami...

Mula hati berasa sebak teringatkan syawal yang datang dan ramadhan yang kian berakhir... kanak-kanak riang, mak-mak seronok menyiapkan dan menghiasi rumah... bapa-bapa seronok melihat suasana bersama ahli keluarga...

tetapi......

ada juga keluarga yang masih berjauhan atau mereka terpaksa bertugas pada hari lebaran ini... ada juga yang memang tidak di alukan untuk bersama kerana pekara lampau dan banyak lagi... itu semua pasti kita tidak dapat rasakan kerana kita punyai keluarga yang serba lengkap.. ALhamdulillah!....

Jangan lah kita lupa pada mereka walaupun kita tidak kenal mereka kita masih boleh berdoa buat mereka atau mengongsi bersama keriangan hari raya ini... pasti ia akan membuat kita lebih menghargai syawal ini...

Buat diriku setiap syawal sememangnya gembira tetapi setiap syawal ini sangat istemewa kerana ini adalah waktu untuk kita benar-benar melihat perwatakkan rakan-rakan dan ahli keluarga yang sebenar-benarnya... dan di kala raya ini banyak kenangan yang datang secara sendiri mengimbas kenangan waktu bersama yang telah pergi atau pun yag sudah tidak bersama....!!!!

Ya Allah
Pada kau sajalah yang aku pohon.. dan pada kau sajalah kami berserah...
Moga kau permudahkan Syawal tahun ini buat keluargaku dan muslimin dan muslimat sekalian.
Amin.

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nak raya dahh..!!!!

2011-08-22T21:37:00.000-07:00

wee............ nak raya dahh!!!!

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september 2010!

2011-08-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

Di antara E-cards awak yang paling terdahulu di waktu kita serius ingin mengenali antara satu sama lain..

e-cards ini masih saya simpan buat kenangan.. ternyata ia adalah kenangan dan membuat saya tersenyum dan masih segar ingatan ketika menerima e-cards awak ini..

Ia juga membuat saya tersenyum dihadapan screen ini apabila memainkan semula e-cards ini...

Terima KAsih Banyak Mr dot dot dot...!!!!

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missing you

2011-08-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

Everyday i think of you.
Everyday you cross my mind.
Everyday i see something that reminds me of you.
Everyday im missing you.
Everyday i wish you were mine.
Everyday i wonder what could of been.
Everyday i think of why you did this.
& everyday im getting stronger.
Everyday im moving on.
But everyday ill always miss you.

surf. life. love. matters.

nukilan rakan ku temui..

2011-08-15T05:42:00.000-07:00

Kawan kita bergadingan

namun kita tak sejalan

kawan kita berlarian

namun tak satu tujuan

aku ingin sepertimu

punyai penuh kekuatan

lihat diriku berbandingmu

penuh dengan sekatan

apa aku membosankan

kerana tak sealiran

apa aku tak tahu aturan

kerana tak ikut-ikutan

biar saja orang bilang

aku ketinggalan

kesabaran bagiku

penting untuk kehidupan

dan aku yakin

dengan -Nya pasti akan

dikurnika tempat yang

terindah kelak!

Can't believe I found you,

I was sitting in the dark,

no one realize Im there,

Im confused to be the truth

but you are always there to hold on me

lighten my burdens

be with me when Im up and downs

I feel I just want to be all alone

but you save me

and I never felt alone anymore...

I failed to feel lonesome

because you have carried me away

Im happy now

and much more happier

you are the one

The one that I wanted to be with...

God send me the best gift

and You are Perfect..!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

blog...

2011-08-15T00:29:00.000-07:00

Sometime when i think and sit with myself.. i always think to have a good blog of myself.. but because im lack of so many things about gadgets and the knowledge of updating all the things here and there.. so i becoming like whatever i can do i do..

ala kadar je la..

but i'm feeling ambitious to have so many things at one time.. but i cant right...

huuurmmm....

pity me.. all i can do is dream.. yes i have to work it out if I want but then i still have to dream first only I can achieved more...!!!

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The invigilator

2011-08-13T22:14:00.000-07:00

This video is inspire.. but if that man teacher was not hiring it is more real...!!!!

http://vimeo.com/13504950

The Invigilator, directed by Manesh Nesaratnam, is a story about two high-school teachers and their aspirations in the teaching profession. Starring celebrity actor Cheryl Samad and Tony Eusoff, this film is at once a light-hearted clash of pedagogical perspectives and at the same time an echo of societies' frustrations with the inadequacies of available education systems.

The Invigilator has been selected and screened for the Fukuoka International Film Festival, Raindance Film Festival, Australian Malaysian Film Festival, Short Shorts Film Festival & Asia Pacific, Dawnbreakers International Film Festival and London Asian Film Festival.

Writer/Director: Manesh Nesaratnam
Producers: Amy Lim & Roshan Ravi
Co-Writer: Nathaniel Tan
Director of Photography: John Goh
Art Director: Shio Chuan Quek

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Saturday in Ramadhan

2011-08-13T03:53:00.000-07:00

Salam Ramadhan And Selamat Hari sabtu bersama keluarga, rakan2 dan pelbagai!!!!

Today I'm going out with my family... We are going to accompany my dad around town for his work and we are going to find some clothes for coming soon hari raya.... Well we are planning to go straight to City Town in Kuala Lumpur but the traffic won't allowed us and also the weather is starting to be raining..* i forgot yesterday Celine told me Saturday and Sunday KL will be raining*.... So we Go round round and round because pap is got in route of escaping Jammed.. we turn back to Ampang Park...

And there is lotsa off stuff to all you need is just have a full $$$$$$$$$ in your bag and you can grab everything what you like..!!!! but When was waiting for mamato do her shopping I come across something to share we all of you...

*** " Wow Jah cantik nye baju manik2 ni... mesti mahal kan.. Tapi lawa la... Beli minggu akhir la mesti harga dia turun..."*

Baju Manik mahal Yang tak mampu dibeli tapi mampu beli harga dah turun..!!! *padahal dah SALE!*

*camwhoring di kedai sampin* just sebab nak mulut papa senyap jap kesian salesgirl kena layan papaku..!!!!

Bacarat- Mama favourite shop... $ ***.** only for our scarves and tudungs... uh..!!!! * tHanks Mama!!*

*camwhore masa kaka tu kira brapa harga harus di pay *

Tika mencari matching baju dan scarf..!!!!

Ronda2 Kuala Lumpur.. TEnang di highway... cuaca sejok kurang panas..!!!!

Hari camwhoreku!!!

Serbuan Bazaar di Subang Perdana... * Dahsyat*

**sorry gambar dari phone camera saya je... :)

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its almost one year already..!!!!

2011-08-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

Back in last year someone took this picture of me and edited the picture.. until today it is my top list favourite picture... and i just cropped the picture for my resume and well done almost all from the places i apply compliment my picture thanks to you dear Amm Whoops...

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I want more!!!!

2011-08-11T22:22:00.000-07:00

It was a hectic week during ramadhan but alhamdulillah i still have the chance to have beautiful life in ramadhan.... during my weekend i still can do my laundry as usual.. and laundry is so many woo....

before

after

that's during weekend.. next i also spend sometime To have a good iftar outside for after a week i had my iftar with mama, imran and me at home.. papa always iftar at the surau because he is incharge to Azan Maghrib in ur surau..!!!!

Our iftar was really great.. because on the same day we had to take some dates from Malek (Amm's cousin) at shah alam so we have to wait for him until he finishes iftar in Kuala Lumpur.. And we went to a mall in town to spend a good time.. we have so much time before iftar.. so i had planned in mind.. hehehee... look what we've done and this is our first time spending such a fun time together like this while waiting for iftar.. but someone is not "puas hati' so we repeated after iftar in the game alley.. weeehhhoooo.... ;)

When we are own our way..

The food is serve..!!!

The game..

Who score more???

Thats was amazing thing to do with him during the early ramadhan... alhamdulillah.. after that we took the dates from malek in shah alam and went back.. we don't spend until late nite because it is working day and it ramadhan al kareem...!!!

Happy Ramadhan Folks!

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In Ramdhan!!

2011-08-09T04:49:00.000-07:00

Masyaallah...

Today when i wake up in the morning it was a good day.. because I had so much fun a day before yesterday with my beloved sweetheart... *im sorry mama and papa i just one the chance to have bebruka puasa with him.. and the balance day we will have buka puasa as usuall..!!!* It was as what we planned just that we have to wait for his cousin to to be back from iftar.. cause we need to takes boxes of dates to give out.. *sedekah*...

By the way we reach quite early we survey some place for iftar.. since we have a lot of time, i have planned to challenge him shooting basketball in the games arena...!!! weee. he agree.... i love it so much yoo...!!! and he wanted to race with me.. Of course i agree....* i wont the basketball but i lose on the race..*

hahaha.. then only we have our Iftar with ful joy and blessed... Alhamdulillah for the rezeki and the lover!!!!! hahaha.. someone not satisfied we went to the game arena for the second time and repeat the same game.. hehehe * this time I WON I WON =)*

fuhhh... memorable day for yesterday... thats why i wake up today with a big smile..!!! hope we can do it again..!!!

Next today in class was a bit slow and relaxed because i was out of focus in teaching them writing.. the student when it is a bit difficult they dont like to challenge theirself.. so im incharge to motivate them but how can i motivate when im not in that mood...!!! huhuhu....

Unfortunately a student is so creative in drawing bring back my motivation skill in class and i wrap out the class with some good fun activity..!!!! She in an intillegent student..

meanwhile the other class was normal and OK.....

In the evening have to Mama from LRT thats my favourite sometime to stuck in the jammed... *hahaha... Kidding...* before that i went to buy all my food for iftar.. mama ordered kebab and some kueh.. wee.. after that only i waited for mama...

At home.. Jengjengjeng.... My lil' bro got a lectured until teardrop and it was really-really-really making all of us mad at him..!!!! so then i decide to release it and have some fresh air..!!!!* To SK...!!!*

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can we have perfect life?

2011-08-07T21:36:00.000-07:00

CAN WE HAVE A PERFECT LIFE ....????
IF THERE IS A WAY YOU WONT HAVE ANY BAD LUCK AT ALL...
AND NO PROBLEMS..
YOU DONT HAVE TO MAKE CHOICE...
YOU DONT HAVE TO WORK...
YOU DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ANY FINANCIAL...
NO FIGHTING AND MISUNDERSTOOD...
EVERYTHING IS JUST PERFECT...

I WISH THERE IS A WAY TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN....

BUT
IT WONT HAPPEN...
BECAUSE IF NOT WE WILL NOT REMEMBER HOW POWERFULL GOD IS...
AND WE WILL NEVER THANKS GOD, WE WILL NEVER PRAY FOR THE GOD...
WE ALSO NOT GOING TO BE PERFECT INSIDE...
ALL WE WANT IS PERFECT AT THE END PERFECT FOR LIFE BUT FOR THE ANOTHER WORLD YOU WILL...................?????????

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picture remind me!!!!

2011-08-07T06:22:00.000-07:00

More pictures from me thru end of last month until this lately what have i went thru... the hard time and the most quality time...

just happened on Thursday 4th August 2011

Taken this picture on Sunday 31st July....

Photo taken in July when our area was blackout.. Thats my dad!!!!

Taken on ALia's bufdae party this is Sarah!!!

Hahaha... bring ni for 'sotong argentina' shopping at Chow Kit Market!!!!

I was badly on fever in July for almost two - three weeks i had bad condition!!!

My blue black nails because of sejok when working..!!!

Bad day 'tayar pancit'!!! In july!!!!

Thats what happen when you are lazy o update your blog and not much idea on typing... picture we always tell you the story.....!!! and i also can remember what had happened to me maaaa...!!!

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i heart nature!!!

2011-08-07T01:28:00.000-07:00

Location : Around New Zealand.

I fall in love to capture and to collect nature and candid photo of children... this is my first collection from away place of my country... i would like to try more.. even i dont have the skill on snapping picture but i do copycat some skill of the people that i know or i meet hehehe.. learning is fun when you experimental it with yourself....

now only i know snapping picture is just like having good picture with the right style the right photo and everything... the result of your picture also are showing how creative you are. or it represent yourself...

Im also not good in editing i dont use any prfessional equip to edit or any gadget.. but at least i try... no to be pro but just to experience..!!! :0

Location : Skyline Luge queue.

Location : Roadside of Queenstown

Location : Queenstown Mall

Location : Around Queenstown Mall

Location : Kids at Queenstown Mall

Location : Wanaka Road

Location : Highway to Queenstown from Christchurch

Location : Falls Tree in Queenstown

Location : Queenstown Mall Lake

p/s : In New ZEaland it is like a sleepytown. but when we are around it became just so happening because we are not from the sleepytown kinda area..!!! but there are to many picture you can snap overthere but Im not that skillful to snap the picture.. But I really hope this picture also can be appreciated that should be Fine and making me Happy to the top!!!!!

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went to NZ in June

2011-08-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah i had an experience travelling with my family to NEw Zealand in Month of June....

Thank to auntie Ean for taking good care of me... Thanks Baba for always concern bout me.. Thanks to Mummy that cook for us during our holiday... Thanks Aimi for the AWESOME booking of airplanes and stay and the journey.. Thanks Along for the house booking and can't forget when we search for the house... Thanks Faiz for driving us everywhere YO..!!! Thanks Zahid too for evrything and anything... Thanks to Sofea fr camwhoring with me... and Thanks to the kiddie for making so much noise... it was amazing!!!!!!

The Ismail's Girls.

( My couzie Aimi, My Hot Auntie: Auntie Ean, My pretty couzie Farah Diana, My rockstar couzy Farah Sofea )

Sunset before we reached Queenstown from Christshurch!

Live music after dinner in Christchurch in front of a building damage because of the earthquake in a week before..!!!

( i already miss someone)

Look our car is crammped!!!! Crampped of joy and happiness..!!!

The road along the way...!!!

On our way to Wanaka stop for on a hill to view Queenstown!!

In the middle of the road.. we can even lie down YO!!!

Cookie monster almost everyday we eat fresh bake cookies...!!!!!

p/s: lotsa more of picture.. but i couldnt put it here.. cause i just don't know what caption else to write.. but it was a great amzing trip.. i wish for more... even when im married i do want to travel woth my family moreeee.....!!!

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miss my blog!

2011-08-07T00:34:00.000-07:00

when i look at this picture what come across my mind was the man who captured this photo... and look on how he editted this picture... i wish he can edit more picture of me.. but thats not the main reason why Im with him.. all i care and very important is how he has editted my heart into one piece with his heart..!!!!

Some people might be thinking taht how wonderful i have him.. so that he can snap more of my picture and edit my picture like a perfect picture... and post to everyone..!!!! but he dont do that to me... he have more models picture in his memory saving.. and he do edit more other people picture and post and people love to comment on his photo.. yes he edit it very nicely.. i love his work so much.... BUT the most i ove his how he snap my heart and always show it to me all the time and only me can view it..!!! and all the time i feel and all the time i can just ask him for more..!!! and without knowing everyday everytime the snap of the love heart is beating in me.. Just like the blood flow in my body and soul!!!!

i heart you...:)

please always remember to edit me in your heart to be more beautiful and perfect...!!!!! I'm going to always support on what you love to do.. but you should know your limit so do I..!!!

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Update blog!!!!

2011-06-10T02:12:00.000-07:00

Hi fella's reader it's been ever and ever i didn't update my blog...

very hectic with new life and love in the air.. make me have a big gap with my lappy... thats the reason i dont have the chance update my blog here..
by the way Alhamdulillah my life is always colourful....

i always update pictures in my blog and less words im sorry.. any reader that follow i may not so good in writing but when im in mood i will...!!!!

* saya tak hebat macam kaki blogger yang lain* But i will try.. anywhere i have more time outside than online.. feel free to say hi to new reader if ther's any!!!!

My latest update for a month ago...!!!!

After busy with farah engagement... im ready for my job interview here and there...

next i didn't get into HSBC...

next i went interview at a college.. alhamdulillah i've been accepted..

and now running new environment of work...

many things i have learned in previous place help me in this college

argh.. to manay things that i feel blessed.. Alhamdulillah..

and last weekend was my family holiday to JB after visiting some friends we had family jalan2 and makan2 at KLebang!!! it was fun and enjoy but i missing my sayang...

This month in my college im incharge for the graduation.. fooh it is ot easy to control my class srowd... agagagaaa....

But i manage to control with some activity after cancel so many plans with my student.. luckily they are happy with my plans....

I just pray that i will be strong in my position and will improvement in my working skills.

im sorry.. can i just update my pictures..!!! *hehehehe* but on my next post!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeee..........

i love you dear!!!!!

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2011-05-11T02:45:00.000-07:00

In May... the upacara yang hapen was Farah Liyana E-day... this is pictures from kekasih camera and acap aka brother camera...!!!

** Thanks for everyone cooperation!!!

love

xoxo...

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end of April....

2011-04-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

thanks dear visiter....

Im sorry I didn't update my blog this lately... because I'm too happy with my life until I have not much time to type the recent acivity I have done...

Eventho in April I'm not working but I have made my love ones happy with me... the activity that I tried during my free time in April is baking... It is my first time trying to bake by my own.... Woowwww...!!!! I have bake a mini muffin and lil' bro experiment it.... Muffin ku habis kurang daripada 24 jam.. so i have bake and bake again in Month of April...!!!!

In April, this cute baby have turn in 6 month.. she's becoming more

cute.. and now she is getting well too...but she still need the oxygen support with her... Insyaallah, she will be strong in few month... and Kak nina you are the most strong mom to take good care of this gifted baby...!!!!

Miss Alia, lil' princess that i always love to kacau whenever i have time to visit her or babysit her... In this month I have spend few time with this lil' proncess yang comel sangat and she is intellengent too.. mak cik kecik ni suka sangat potpetpotpet... merajuk pun kuat juga....!!!!

Picture below taken during I wa being the babysitter and driver to baby Azra for hospital appointment.. Alia and me becoming a camwhoring for an hour because we waited for about two hours around HKL... and we love to spend time together cause I always can sakat this lil' girl.. and Im lucky this girl tak la cerewet sangat...!!!! * sambil2 mempelajari menjaga anak kecil* =)

In all my entry of my blog..... this is a special one... I have spend so much time with my family this month.. cleaning up the house everyday.... talking to my cats everyday.. layan my brother.. marah my brother all that I have been doing in this month....

My dad also Know have register himself back as a student... Congratulation papa! but Im the mentor for his assignment.. hehehe.... Need to help papa for his graduation...!!!! me and papa will graduates in the same year YO...!!!!

meanwhile mama.... always give the best support to all of us on what we want to do... wee....!!! mama we LOVESSSS you...!!!!

This month is my lil' brother telinga bengkak lebam.. he have been so naughty and degil... I dont what have happened to him this lately.. makes everyone feel so stress to him... ya ampun all of us have to download so much sabar to him...!!!!

Lastly, my love addiction are getting worst.... whats the solution...!!!! Mr.Lobe can you think on what is the solution...?????

Weeee... not forgoten in this month I have got the chance to celebrate friends day out... A girlie day out,,, but a bit dissapointed because many of them did not turn up!!!! kecewa la...

but its OK.. Mr.Lobe have also planned to meet few friends so I have been talking to much in April... I also learned many things in April.. see not working also there are few benefits when you know how to appreciate and learned from mistakes and everything....

Live your life for a better Love Living Life...!!!!

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April I'm Back...!!!!

2011-04-19T01:13:00.000-07:00

oh blog.. oh blog... daku rindu kamu bangat untuk menulis... di kesibukan melayan diri sendiri dan buah hati saya... saya terlupa akan berblog....

kini sudah dua hari berada di rumah baru punya masa untuk luangkan masa berblog..

dalam masa dua minggu tidak berblog macam macam berlaku.. adeyh... superb crazy with myself...

saya demam sehari suntuk sehingga si dia pun saya tak dapat nak layan.. ( tapi si dia faham saya demam teruk )
Not working in April....( maksud saya no permanent job )
Melawat job fair anjuran BN di PWTC seorang diri... ( Banyak yang apply tapi still no respond, tiada rezki lagi )
Mula berminat untuk mencuba baking cupcake pakai acuan butter cake.... ( seronok sampai dah buat 3 round, masuk hari ni ) hehehehe.....
membantu papa dengan membuat pelbagai assignmentnyer....
Home work on Monday ( menjadi bibik menyerikan rumah )
Menjadi on-call driver buat papa jika tak boleh ambik mama....
menjadi pemandu arah ke sekolah buat adik tersayang..( 12.50pm masih tak pergi sekolah, kena lah hantar!! )
menjadi teman sepenuh masa buat Wan Mohd Akram..( I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! )
Berhenti mengajar di Pusat Tusyen Astaka Minda ( Im going to miss my students )
menjalankan tugas menternak kuceng dengan bijak ( neng, JJ makan... *jeritan manje pada kuceng )
meramah mesra dengan teman-teman.... ( hi..*post d wall FB* )
berkenalan dengan orang asing dan menjadi teman di whoopstudio.. ( =) Hi.... So sweet... Lawanyer... hehehe.. i'm wana...=) )
menambah ilmu tentang skop photografi dan pose top-top... ( wow.. cantek nyer sayang, sayang pose kena ada segitiga.. i share ngan you link tu ea...)
membeli belah barang dapur bersama ahli keluarga yang lama giler tak buat bersama.... ( papa: " amek lagi la untuk stok satu bulan.. yang ni tak nak.. hah.. amik skali la..!!!! )
sayang : " you lama kita tak pergi jalan-jalan... 1. kawasan ke mid valley, kemudian mid valley lagi... next sunway.... again area sunway lagi... ( itu lah aku dan dia suka berjalan sana sini tanpa plan.. seronok sangat bersama dia...)

masih banyak lagi kot yang saya tak senaraikan..... tapi macam dah sebulan lah semua ni berlaku... moga bulan depan akan labih teratur life saya dan yang paling penting saya masih dicintai sepenuhnya kerana saya amat mencintai dia...!!!!

*Inilah ahli keluarga saya... dari kiri : Amm (sayang saya!), Papa ( sayang saya!!!!), mama ( sayang saya!!!!) dan Imran ( tiada dalam gambar tapi dia sayang saya juga!!!!)

Dear April,

I have spent half month in April, can you help me by giving more lucks towards my working jobs... and please dont let me be to close with people who is don't know how to appreciate people.. but please please tell me how to make sure i can give more love to a man that have make me so deep crazy in love.... and please share the secret for me to always being happy and not too emotional when i have things in my mind... Pray for my family, my love and I have a good health so that we can workhard during day to have better days and live in Love for each other...

Thank you.

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dah jumpe!

2011-04-05T17:55:00.000-07:00

sejak kebelakangan ni... semua orang dah mula sibuk... dah 4 bulan berlalu untuk tahun ini.. macam-macam yang dah berlaku.. dan macam-macam lagi yang nek berlaku kan... saya amat merindui detik-detik hujung tahun lepas.. paling-paling di bulan oktober... fooh.... seronoknya sehingga kini terasa.... perkongsian yang saya terima sehingga kini yang asyik membuat saya bangkit dalam senyuman.... indah jika semua orang dapat rasakan....

bulan pertama bulan yang jadi satu penantian, bulan yang kedua tak sabar-sabar untuk berikan ucapan terindah, bulan yang ke-tiga bulan yang sudah membuat aku sangat-sangat selesa bila ke mana sahaja mana tak nye dah kena heret balik kampong, bulan ke-empat hari-hari bersama dihitung bagai nak rak tapi gelak tawa yang kita kira memang terlampau banyak sangat la, ke mana sahaja ada kenangan, bulan yang kelima kami menunggu untuk ceritakan perlbagai pekara yang telah kita lakukan.. seronok.. seronok sangat... uishh.. dikala bulan ke-enam tiba.. kami berdua masih bersama pada tarikh itu tiba tapi kami terlampau taksub akan pekara yang dibuat.. hurmm... yang pasti kami tunggu bulan yang akan datang.....

dengan rasa kesalnya saya telah membuat sedikit hasil tangan buatnye... tapi tak tam lah dah jumpa belum.. kerana yang pasti ada dua hasil tangan yang kuberikan pada malam itu.. satu dalam envelope ada puzzle satu lagi.....(awak dah jumpe ada 7 helaian)..

rugi kalau awak tak jumpe.. itu hasil peluh saya sendiri.. saya tak hebat mana dan saya tak banyak masa untuk hasilkan lagi umm.. kerana saya masih banyak masa untuk berdamping dengan awak..=)

saya menunggu comment awak.. sorry itu saja yang saya mampu buat.. lain kali saya cuba buat lagi ummmph.... lalalalalaaa.... Thanks a lot sayang for always with me..!!!!

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coretan tengah malam

2011-03-28T11:59:00.000-07:00

Waktu : tengah malam

lokasi : Kamar tidur

Aku tidak dapat melelapkan mataku, kerana aku fikirkan dia.... aku terlampau sayangkan dia dan aku terlalu ambil berat tentang dia... aku ingin pastikan aku selalu OK untuk menjaga dia... tapi sampai bila aku mampu lakukan sedemikian.... aku hanya boleh bebel dan bebel tapi kalau dia enggan bagaimana...???? aku makin risau kerana dia sayangku.....

aku risau, risau je tak boleh buat apa-apa kan.... tapi macam mana aku nak ekspresikan.... takutnya kalau nanti dia betul-betul tak nak bagitahu keadaannya yang sebenarnya dia kurang sihat.... aku benci diri aku sebab cara tingkah aku kini dia dah tak nak bagi taw lagi.... Inikah namanya aku yang mengambil berat pasal dia.....

aduh, malam ini aku sungguh gelisah tak tentu hala... nak tidur tapi aku risaukan dia... panggilan telefon yang sebentar.. kemudian SMS nye pun agak ringkas sangat.... semua ni salah aku la.. aduh.. maka terima lah aku sorang-sorang... fikir dan fikir dan berfikiirrr......

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2011-03-28T01:02:00.001-07:00

Kerana awak minat saya pun minat juga... saya yang over-over lak ni... hehehe... ni sikit je picture yang saya letak ada banyak lagi yang saya jumpe... weee....!!!!!

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which one is you?

2011-03-23T02:45:00.000-07:00

Which one is you...????

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lazybum!

2011-03-21T04:13:00.000-07:00

It have been so long i have never been so lazybum..

today im lazier than my car...

i dont purrr.. but im worst than that..

even a snail can walk for miles in day because thye are bored in one place...

im only putting myself on bed the whole day...

hope the day wont just end like this...

i still have my night...

hello night can you put my lazybum away..!!!!

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Awak!

2011-03-20T06:39:00.000-07:00

Insyaallah..

i hope ts going to be fine....

missing is killing the feeling..

eventhough you do things right if you just happen to do something its going to ruin the whole thing...

im pretty sad here..

while the weather is cooling but it doesnt help to cool me off...

im have a hot temperature now....

not enough with that...

everything is about him right now...

this have became really particular..

i hope i wont be torcher for a long time...

i cant stand it...

i have said sorry so many times...

but sorry seem to be the hardest words for this case...

what else should i do...

uh...

its killing both of us..!!!!

and when its like this he will say things i dont want to hear...

i just really cant put him away right now...

but it seem a big matter here....

Ya ampun... Tolong.. tolong...!!!!

i bought this junk just because remind me of him..

tapi xmaw makan sebab he still like merajok with me...

tolong lah jangan merajok.. awak jauh tu...!!!!

uurghhhh...@#$%^&*(&)(*&%$#@#$@%^&*(.....

orang merajok lama-lama rugi taw awak..!!!

awak saya pujuk awak ni..!!! awak!!! awak!!!!

awak ni comel la... awak jangan la macam ni...

awak saya nak kita bergurau senda ni...

awak marilah.. awak jangan lah lagi bermuncong-muncong...

awak.. awak... saya pujuk awak ni..

awak.. awak please kita ok kan..

awak dah tak merajokkan..!!!!

awak.. Caaakk..!!! awakk jangan emo lagi ok..

saya ada dengan awak ni...

awak, saya rindu awak ni...

awak.. awak... awak baik lah...

awak.. awak dah lah..

saya dengan awak je ni..

saya tak kemana...

saya masih dengan awak kat sini..

jangan lah buat saya terlampau risau...!!!!

awak jangan buat saya risau...!!!!

awak takkan nak saya drive sampai penang pujuk awak..!!!!

awak nanti saya buat kerja gila kang..!!!!

awaaakkk...!!!!!

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2011-03-16T22:29:00.000-07:00

-Me-

-this lately-

-so flat-

-so out of blues-

-i dont like myself-

-help!- help!-

-doodles-

-i found natural help!-

-express thru doodles-

-i had done my doodles-

-im release-

-im back again-

The best way is search for love you will be automactically in Mood...

Mood ( activate)

Mood swing (deactivate)

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dulu rimas, sekarang dia bagai emas!

2011-03-14T03:26:00.000-07:00

cerita hari ini....

sudah lama hendak berkongsi tapi saya tiada banyak masa untuk coretkan di dalam blog ini....

cerita ini tiada niat untuk menguris hati sesiapa.. cuma niat untuk berkongsi bersama....

pada suatu ketika dahulu, aku selalu dikejutkan atau di terkejutkan dengan satu panggilan dari

seorang jejaka yang aku kenali dilaman web sosial.... Aku sukar untuk rapat dengan kenalan laman web sosial ini.. tapi aku percayakan si dia ini lalu aku 'keep in touch' dengan dia..

bermula saat aku rajin meng'online'kan diriku.. Jejaka laman web ini kerjanya memang rapat dengan online dan computer.. jadi aku sering diserang dilaman web 'yahoo messenger' dan juga pada ketika itu facebook baru saja mengemban

gkan sayapnya.... ini berlaku tika dua tahun yang lepas pada tahun 2008...

pada mulanya aku dan dia tidak lah begitu rapat.. tapi kami sering mengutus mesej dalam alam siber ini.. kami ada juga berkongsi tugas kami hari-harian... tiba satu masa ni aku lama tidak meng'online' kan diri.... jadi dia perasan aku meng'online' kan diri..

jadi aku diserbu dan diserbu... ( aku pelik begitu cepat dia detect,is he waiting for me.. or he likes to attack people when you have been quiet for a long time?) Jadi aku pun layan je la dia ni.. akhir sekali before end of the conversation he wants my contact number.. oh no.. should i trust him or not.. that something new for me to give my number to a cyber man.. well it takes me a day to think and i decide to exchange number with him..

hurrmmm... dengan adanya nombor telefon bimbit aku yang selamat di bekukan di dalam memory pone dia.. telefon aku akan berdering pada waktu-waktu tertentu dan kami juga rajin

berhubung dalam sebulan mungkin sekali... kadang-kadang tiga bulan sekali.. tapi bila mula berborak dia ni macam tak nak letak telefon.... kesunyian agaknya... topik-topik yang kami bincangkan selalunya menyeronokkan evendo actually its sedih.. just pretend like nothing happen je.. aku akan calm him down.. and dia pun akan calm aku down.. maksudku dengan topik bicara aku dan dia ditelefon dia....

dalam satu masa dahulu, dia pernah senyap lama juga.. macam hilang arah.... aku ingat dia dah gone.. macam dah jumpa hala tuju.... waktu tu aku perlukan someone to talk.. dia saja yang aku fikirkan.. tapi macam mana ntah... malam itu aku da

pat panggilan dia... aku seronok sangat tapi takkan nak bagitahu si stranger ni... i feel so comfortable to talk with him.... dia pun agak selesa untuk berkomunikasi dengan aku ( tak tahu lah kalau aku jer yang perasan ).... hari yang dia telefon tu dia nak kongsikan something happy.... yang dia bercita-cita untuk manage a studio....

and dia cerita lah by when dia nak buka and bla bla bla... he is inspiration.. but yet masa dia bercerita tu not much people know whats on his mind.... aku sangat bangga yang dia ni strong orangnya ( tetiba jer aku rasa sangat rapat dengan dia, mungkin kerana aku rasa dia percayakan aku)......

Setelah berkurun dia tak telefon aku lagi... aku ada juga text dia.. tapi tak dilayan.. hurmm... mungkin aku ada terkasar bahasa kot waktu terakhir panggilan dari dia.... ( tak mungkin ) tak pe aku pun uat tak tahu jer.. standard lah biler berkawan.. kadang-kadang ingat kadang-kadang sajer buat-buat busy...

aku terkelu sekali lagi.. panggilan dari dia naik..!!!! kini dia sangat happy sebab dia sudah pun capai cita-cita untuk dirikan sebuah studio... kini dia telefon untuk ceritakan perjalanan yang dia telah lalui padaku.. apa tujuan pun aku tak tahu.. tapi seronok dengan pengalaman dia ni... pada mula itu dia rajin keep in touch dengan aku.... aku pun kadang-kadang gedik2 pamerkan diri di 'yahoo messenger'.... well dia pun banyak berkongsi dengan aku cerita life ups and down dia...!!!

tiba satu masa ini aku mula rasa rimas lak dengan panggilan dia.. sebab dia suka merajuk taw kalau tersalah cakap sikit adey.. lemah aku dibuatnyer.. aku lak tak pandai nak memujuk-mujuk ni.. al-maklum la waktu tu aku ada teman yang giler buat aku rimas gak..!!!! hurmm... tapi aku lagi sanggup pujuk dia ni pada waktu tu.. dia pun faham situation aku.. sebab secara tak langsung aku ada berkongsi dengan dia... semua ini happen dalam tahun 2009-2010...

hari demi hari... salah satu hari pada tahun 2010... aku mengajak dia ini untuk teman aku ke satu concert... laju betul respon dia untuk temani aku... maka itu adalah official day aku berjumpa dengan dia, jejaka yang aku berhubung selama setahun dua ini... berdebar tapi selamber je la.... aku menjemput dia untuk ke concert dalam keadaan selamber LOUD....

Setelah membawa dia ke concert itu, aku tak tahu lah apa yang dia fikirkan... kami tak lah contact ajer.. well dua-dua pun busy la katakanlah.. kan invite ke concert tu unplanned.. tapi after one month suddenly, its POP.. both of us jadi rapat dan rapat... tika itu aku pun tak ingat kenapa boleh buat kita dua rapat.. aku dah lama dijemput untuk melawat ke studio dia.. so one day aku pergi lah visit studio dia berteman kan dengan seorang rakan.... hehehe.. dia agak kelam kabut.. maybe itu memang cara dia kot.. comel jer... aku ganggu waktu dia kot.. tapi aku datang nak melawat je lah... well... it was fun for the second meet....

Dia ni baik.. walaupun aku tak kenal sangat background dia... well dia teman aku hantar rakan ku di bangi.. thats so sweet right... and suddenly aku ni careless lah... phone aku tertinggal lak kat studio dia... miserable jap aku.. luckily lah aku ni ada dua phone... and luckily dia dah bagi bizness kad dia.. so i call dia and suruh dia simpan telefon bimbit aku.... next two three days aku pergi jumpa dia amik phone aku... sebelum amik dia ajak teman dinner.. aku ok jer la... well.. tak tahu apa yang dah jadi time our third meet too... after that night we become closer.. and closer....

hurmm..... *now im smilling writing this thing* well its so wonderful this time around to be love with this man... its going to be real good memory.... after all what have happen to me dengan mamat cyber ni.. i end up now with him... Loving him is my priority... and lagi suprise is i wish to be his dream wife to be love and care for him and his family.... there are a lotsa thing after kitaorang bersama.. memang lah tak lama mana.. tapi kalau dah tiap hari bersama kalau sehari tak jumpa.. adui menggung sesak kerinduan gitu.... itulah orang kata mula-mula jangan lah rasa rimas ke tak suka ke menyampah ke... tengok sekarang macam aku.. dah melekat dah... nak cungkil pakai apa pun susah..... haih...!!! yang tak eloknye.. ramai je yang tak senang tengok aku dok bahagia denga dia.. ye lah.. aku kan 24 hours with him... tapi jangan lah risau friends.. this time around my man is the best.. TRUST ME...!!!!

atas: Made for me from him!

bawah : Ini lah checkpoint signboard saya untuk pulang....

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believe you!

2011-03-13T22:02:00.000-07:00

Since the day i have met you....

so many thing we have talked together..

everything we do, we do for each other...

its just about me and you...

i know its crazy..

but all the things you have done, its so wonderful..

and Now you make me believe you so much..

and i have a dream to catch with you..!!!!

Please make my wish come true...

but i cant promise to make me you smile all the time..

but i can promise i want to be with you all the time.

will the chance come to me..????

i make look so 'comot' at times..

will you still love me..???

I may have my moody day...

will you still talk to me..????

i may have days that i talk to much...

will you there to entertain me..???

i may feel a bit empty when im to tired..

will you fill the emptiness space for me????

and more things that make me worry..

will you able to make me comfortable...

and are you sure, you have the same feelings as me...!!!!

i Just wanna believe in you..!!!!

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bebelan pagi...!!!!

2011-03-09T15:35:00.000-08:00

hurm.. pagi-pagi gadis berusia 23 tahun ini sudah kena bebelan dah agak dah itu akan berlaku cuma tak tahu bila....

ok mama... to day i will do all the housework after im back... im sorry because i have forgot about the housework....

*Syazwana, makesure no second warning from mama.. she knows what you can do and you cant do..!!!! so lazybum you ask for it.. now you got it....!!!! checklist time..**

Uh rasa mahu pause waktu di pagi ini and siapkan semua keje.... arghhh... stresss....!!!!!

Kak Miyah where are you....!!! tolong lah awa...!!!! awa masih tak biasa lagi la...!!!! Kakak... saya nak kakak saya...!!!!! Mesti kakak dah lupa kat awa..!!! tapi masih ingat kat kakak...!!!! takpelah kalau akak dah lupa kat awa.. sedeyh nyer...!!!!

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miss her again

2011-03-08T23:28:00.001-08:00

whenever i do my housework..

i will always remember her..

and that keep me missing her always...

i miss her to do my laundry, tidy my room, her cook, her potpet, her cuddle, her sweet smile..

and more about her...

i just wonder how is she now..!!!!

Tears coming down so thats mean i do miss her alot..

she give my family a lesson that however at the end we have to do things on our own...

and now i just cant manage things...

im so in mess.. but yet i just keep it to myself...!!!!

i miss my kak miyah so much..!!!!

thanks for giving me hard time after so long you have been in my family!

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Thanks my Love!

2011-03-08T22:17:00.000-08:00

Location : Wash and Dry at Subang.. ( Laundry )

Day : Today

Date : Today

Time : Now

Alhamdulillah.. sejak kebelakangan ini saya amat gembira disampaing ahli keluarga dan orang yang disayangi.. makin hari makin pelbagai cara dia cuba untuk memikat hati saya serta ahli keluarga... Terima Kasih yang terhingga perlu ku ungkapkan...

sayang saya pada dia kini makin bertambah... hehehehe.....

SURPRISE!!! itu pekara yang paling melampau telah dia lakukan pada minggu yang lalu.... dengan jemputan yang ramai tetapi ada yang tak dapat datang itu sudah memadai dan membuat saya tersenyum sehingga ke telinga.... aiyak... saya tersenyum sehingga sekarang OK.....

Terkejut.com sangat.. tapi masih cover-cover... terasa seperti princess pada waktu itu dengan rasa sayang yang melonjak... " awak ni kan..buat saya geram sangat kat awak..!!!!" itu kata hati saya... tapi saya sempat berbisik a pada sayang saya " thanks sayang, I like it! "

It was so wonderful... he really nows how to make me smile.... To all gentleman out there treats girls nicely to make them happy... the sincere smile will never show any lies...!!!!

Oh Gosh... sayang kamu HeBat!!!! Yeah... you hardwork sangat HebAt..!!! well down you are becoming closer to my family... i like it so much.... you win my heart... and NOw you win my papa and mama and queen hearts.... BONUS.. level-up sayang....

please dont do more surprise because it will make me so melt..... i have good experience sayang with you.... but will happen if i have something like this to you..???? hehehhehe.....

sayang, thanks a zillion.. thanks a lot.. i juts dont know how to say thanks to you...!!!!!

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Thank you to all!

2011-03-07T10:13:00.000-08:00

memories that have been kept..... Thanks to all my family members... ( My mama, papa, imran al haqeem, nenek, wan mohd akram, , ibu, ayah, kak ain, abag buz, baby farhan, aris, mama, baba, aimi, faiz, sofea, ogy and mom) thanks to my bestie...( aznita ramli and sareela roslyana) thanks to my cheerful friends ( sarah yasmin, ahmad azizul rizman, ezer, fatin syamimi and fattah, hafiz ismail, aimi hazwani abdullah) to other that have been invited thanks for not coming because if not my heart will surely stop pumping for few second... but all of you guys I heart everybody.. Thanks for the coolest bufdae wishes from all my friends and family... thanks thanks a zillion....

( above : accidently caught sitting in the same pose)

(farah sofea and my faces )

( same pose with different people)

( bestie get together lovely!)

( family that i love the most!)

( macho guy)

( ayah and me )

( people that make my heart stop pumping for few second)

( my bestie and liyana is missing)

( Queen and beloved aunties that always support me!)

(F.a.m.i.l.y)

( my forever love till i die )

( Kj and Unisel )

(forever apec)

(favourite picture from meen lens!)

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alhamdulillah 050311

2011-03-06T04:09:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah... Genap sudah semalam usia saya 23 tahun... surprise yang di pelan sangat menjadi membuat saya sangat terhar biru.... semua rakan-rakan dan famili bersama di lokasi parti... sangat seronok rasanya....!!!! saya terlalu terharu sehingga tak dapat nak berucap seketika... rasa seperti ingin berikan semua orang pelukan dan ciuman kasih sayang.....

TERIMA KASEH YANG TAK TERHINGGA...!!!!

Buat familiku,

mama, papa and imran i love you more and more everyday... we are a small family that need each other badly... i will try my best to show the best for my family... papa and mama i always pray the best for both of you.. because i love you so much.... i want to be a good anak for you... i want to make you always proud of me.... i want you always be happy for what im doing... but dont expect to high because im still trying to learn to live in a better future.. mama and papa please dont give up to take good care of me.. because i will care for both of you until forever.. its my promise....

to my lovely boy....

thanks so much because you did a good job to unite everyone under one roof.... thanks a zillion i just cant stop saying those thanks words to you... i hope our relationship will be last so that i can do surprises to you too.. and you can do more surprises for me too.... being everyday with you is getting crazy because you always can read my mind its dangerous but i like it.. i really like it..!!!! i will pray the best for you too sayang.. but you also dont expect to much from me because everything that i do is always sincere from my heart and it is specially for you and it is only you...!!!! Thanks so much sayang.. i love you to much...!!!!

to my friends and more friends...

i always remember you guys eventhough sometime i might not have enough time to text or holle you guys.. but it doesnt mean i forgot you guys.... now i have better life and better partner to understand my situation... im back for being myself and i love myself more than previous year.. alhamdulillah... friends im sorry if i have hurt you guys before but i hope now we can always share the laughter that i have already miss before and now can create more love environment to share with everybody..... i learn to love my friend because i want them to love and remember me...!!!!

i just love my life when i knew love is everywhere.. and if you appreciate gift that have been made for you in return you will always deserve the best.. all you need to do is being so thankful to god because you have the opportunity to feel the happiness that not others have....Syukur alhamdullillah...!!!! insyallah everyone will have their happiness everyday eventhough for a second.....!!!!=)

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i dont deserve it!

2011-03-06T03:56:00.000-08:00

i saw something that im not supposed to see today....

seeing is believing.... but why must it happen to me..

have i done anything wrong...????

im going to think positive and act cool....

hope i can tolerate...!!!!

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happy picture...!!!!

2011-03-04T11:08:00.000-08:00

Found this in my folder and keep me smilling..

alhamdulillah happy family is everywhere when you know how to love them...!!!!!

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weeeeee!!!!!

2011-03-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

saya terjumpa ini!!!!!

"what are you trying to dooo!!!!!" ( muncong mulut!!!!!)

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shooty di whoopsy...

2011-02-27T01:26:00.000-08:00

Today i have no other plans as normal i will have few time to spend the love one my boyfie.... today i have some bad luck.. where i left my key and my car locked... but its ok the abang jaga carpack help me out.... im happy back again...!!!!

the news from metro make me fresh to wakes up early morning and to read about the news is awesome... motivate me for the day...!!!!

and i have fun today to teman my boyfie at his whoopstudio because he have some programmes wherened up he have to shoot himself for some other promo..!!! go go go boyfie your sporting... we love ya...!!!!!

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Lian Padukan is the name...

2011-02-26T19:11:00.000-08:00

this Lian Padukan about my martial arts activity that i have involved for almost ten years...!!!!!

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love letter

2011-02-16T23:16:00.000-08:00

a love letter for you!

hari demi hari....

kita diberi peluang untuk bersama....

kita cuba untuk tidak selalu bersama...

tapi kita masih hari-hari bersama...

moga ia berkekalan selama-lamanya....

perkenalan kita mungkin singkat...

tak kira umur atau pangkat....

tapi cintamu dan cintaku terangkat....

bila masanya mahu terikat....?

moga semuanya berjalan dengan lancar....

kini rasa hati sangat tak sabar...

sayang ku padamu sangatlah benar....

telahku ungkapkan hari-hari tanpa rasa gusar...

jangan lah kita cemburu buta...

oleh hanya kata-kata...

buktikan lah denga padangan mata....

baru nyata itu cinta kita....

apa lagi hendak dikata...

sudah habis semua bicara..

tunggu masa tiba..

semoga restu diterima...

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good life with happy family

2011-02-16T22:39:00.000-08:00

Today someone is on mind....

i miss my kak miyah so much....

Last time when she was around all the entire house will be clean by her.... and she always ask me to help her sround.. oand now i feel so thankful because i can clean the house.. i know i might not clean the house as clean as she cleans up... but at least my house is tidy....

u took care of me when mama and papa not around... you have help my family so much... but why yo

oh i miss her so much...!!!!

Now I feel what she feel when we just tidy the house and the next day is a mess.... kakak im sorry.. and i miss you a lot...!!! i really wish that you are back in the family.... i still can accept that you are not in our family anymore...... you have been the best sister in house i have... we share and we laugh and we fight just like sisters.... you have took care my family so well but you have to go..... redha je la...!!!!

*best nyer kalau kakak dapat balik kat sini...!!! kakak balik lah...!!! papa and mama kan bagi akak bawa husband akak sekali... akak...!!!! awa rindu akak sangat... akak tak kesian ke kat kami...!!!! kami tak biasa dengan semua ni... akak... akak... akak kenapa satu mesej pun akak tak reply kat sini.... akak pergi dan terus tak nak balik tapi jangan lah sampai berdiam diri...!!!! ingatan saya kat akak sangat fresh lagi...!!!! tak pelah.. mama selalu kata kalau akak tak reply pun kita semua doakan untuk akak the best buat keluarga akak di sana...!!!!

Buat mama and papa....

Awa sayang sangat kat semua tapi kadang-kadang awa i malas malas sangat, awa tahu awa boleh buat tapi awa ni manje kan....

mama, im sorry kalau awa tak banyak cakap ngan mama.. kadang-kadang kita macam tak ngam la mama....

papa, im already grown up... but i dont feel like i want to grown up.... cause life as a grown up people is too much challenge and im so weak.... tapi i still have to move on...

papa and mama, i hope you will always be the most lovely parents i have.... you both have been the best ever parents i have..... tapi im just so scared to live if you are not there for me.... mama papa please always support me... because i just dont want to feel alone.... and i know i wont be alone all the time.... but sometime its kiling when i feel that im not strong enough to face my own life....!!!!

mama and papa,

i will always pray the best for our family. specially for both of you and adik..... i promise i will be the best for both of you.... i will carried the responsibility as a daughter to both of you...!!!!

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bubble talk in mind

2011-02-14T04:54:00.000-08:00

Today i have this mood talking to myself more....

first of all to myself:

i wish i will be always strong enough to face on my own life and my own decision making....

i dont want to be sad on what i have done... but i dont that can't be running away far from me... its born natural to feel happy sad angry and hungry...!!!! so i just want to be my best for my love one and my best of life...!!!

next to my lovely family:

Dear family, Im sorry this lately in have been a bit mess among all of us.. we really cant manage each other but we always try..... specially to mama, no matter how you sick you stil string right mama... we love you so much.. thats why sometime we do things for you but actually we are lazy..!!!! hehehe.....

papa, im sorry i dont have much time to talk and gurau2 with you.. because i realize that if im not around you will spend some time with my only brother.. so he will feel that you are giving the attenttion to him.. and thats why i only take sometime to talk and tease you around....

dear brother, i always miss to disturb you because it makes me missing you badly when im away and you are not around... it takes me 9 years to wait for you ok adeekk..!!!!

but my dear family no matter how and what it is.. i promise you are the best family i ever had..... i have something to ask.. if one day i should leave the house what will you say my dear family.. and if one day i have choose and be ready t live in another man life... will all of you still love me and treat my man as our family...?????

my family, im sorry if Im a bit lazy or i have done something really naughty and put everybody in problems.. i dont mean to.. you are the only family i have... i cant live without all of you!!!!!

lastly:

To the future hubby, if Im ready to be married with you.. will you ready to married me.... have you got to know about me the truth.. my family, myself, my life.... will you able to be there when i miss my family and only you are there.... do you know the skill to stop me crying if im sad... do you know how to make me smile when im angry... or what should you do if i just cant stop talking???? and many more..... i just wish that future hubby will know that i really cant be far away from love and i cant be really sick of love....

** i know sometime i dont have the strenght to express all of this straight to them.. but at least i have few ways to release it.... lovelovelovelovelovelove... i just want all the love..!!!!!

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stickerssss!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-12T11:45:00.000-08:00

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Progress test 1

2011-02-11T18:31:00.000-08:00

The student having test.... progress test 1..

From Left : Arazo, saud, Abdollah, Muhammad Sabir, Zezo (mubarok), Zeyad, Muhammad Abdullah, The Clown ( wangkui) & the doctor ( Ruslan)

The chinese man who called me Bird Mouth...!!!!!

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Lovely supper!!!!!

2011-02-10T08:24:00.000-08:00

A secret question is answered.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night was a cool supper night... it brings fresh memory about the early stage we have supper.... it was sweet eventho i drank hot lemon tea... hehehe... by the way we need to create happy moment to make life harmony and happily alive...!!!!!

Next on the way back, we have been a good humankind.. which we save a kitten.... we took the cat for a ride and feed the cat.. the cat look lost and age about five to six month... KESSSSIIIIIAAAANNNNNN sangat...!!!! but we left the cat at my sayang place..... it was lovely when we have lovely thing to share and we be lovely to another living things.... Insyaallah we are going to bless always.....

i felt so happy until i wish for today i can have a tree picture of me and him and all the memoty look wil be hang just like the above picture... isn't it lovely.... he have a collection of my picture but i don't .... hurmmm.... sayang can you have create something nice with the collection of my picture... if yes, you are so sweet sure im going to be so terharu and tears droppp.... huhuhuhu.....

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words......

2011-02-08T22:46:00.000-08:00

Have I told you how good it feels to be me,
when I'm in you?
I can only stay clean
when you are around.
Don't let me fall.
If I close my eyes forever,
would it ease the pain?
Could I breathe again?

You know I got this feeling that I just can't hide
I try to tell you how I feel
I try to tell you but I'm me
Words don't come easily
When you get close I share them

I watch you when you smile
I watch you when you cry
And I still don't understand
I can't find the way to tell you

Ooo, baby, I love your way, everyday
Gonna tell you I love your way, everyday
Wanna be with you night and day

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

And I feel just like I'm living
someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
when everything was going right
And I know just why you come along with me
This was your dream
and you always believed in me...

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TARGET!!!!

2011-02-03T18:46:00.000-08:00

Im supposed to do this in a week ago... but only now i have my best privacy of time to create the countdown that what i have planned with my another part of heart..!!!
insyaallah.. we will reach the target date on time.... praying the best...!!!!

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situation LIFE!

2011-02-03T01:02:00.000-08:00

sejak kebelakangan ini banyak yang bermain di minda....
macam-macam pekara yang berlaku..
well i take it easily...
i miss the real me...
and now im back again...

i can recover my sadness with my happy face..
so that people cant really know whats in mt...
but actually i have lotsa things to be worry....
but i just want to keep it to myself...

anyway im happy right now for having me myself back..
and the boyfie of my dream that understand my situation and life..!!!!
and my family that tak bnyak bebel when im always not around in home..!!!
thanks mama, papa, adik and AMM...!!!!

i appriciate it so much...

and sometime i just need time for myself to make things clear for what i want to do and be..!!!!

When ever you feel that your love is great.. surely there will be some challenge is going on...

just that you realize or not...

well in this case im really worry of coz...

trusting myself and communication is the c=best way to be care of...!!!

im watching my own best step to improve my future realtionship with you lovely boyfie..!!!!

Things now its like ups and down because there is something to catch on....

and so many great news i heard around...

but not forgetting there are also bad news thats scared me...

well, stalkers too are still alive to disturb people like me.....

sometimes i wish i can just stop everything just Me and him..!!!

but thats not fair...

whatever lifes must go on...

i trust i can do, i hope i have enough strength....

i just want to feel great around my love ones and live in happpily of sincerity...!!!!

thinking about future really scared you when you just dont know that you are strong enough or not..!!!

tapi kita kan ada tuhan.. berdoa je la untuk yang terbaik...

semuanya kita boleh usaha....

insyaallah, im going to survive with my plans...!!!!

love everywhere is what i want to feel everyday..!!!!

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the waiting

2011-01-27T22:00:00.000-08:00

we are waitng...
i am waiting..
everybody is waiting....!!!!!

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ditempat dia..!!!!

2011-01-26T03:26:00.000-08:00

it has been for month and month that i came here....

and today i got an opportunity to write my blog at his place...

it is a wonderful time together here always with him...

i had my new year, and new things or we call new routines after i met him...

it have been a good things to do things together...

well we learn about each other more always...

yeah, sometimes we have arguments...

but our arguments are cute arguments..

i have a special dedication to him:

sayang,

thanks for always be with me,

thanks for letting me singgahsana at your place...

i appreciate it so much...

sorry if i like to disturb you..

and make you feel annoy..

but i know you like it..

and you will always miss me when im not around..!!!!

haahaha....

well... may our loves always grow...!!!!

xoxo..!!!~

surf.life.love.matters.

kejadian~

2011-01-22T08:56:00.000-08:00

malam ini agak berlainan daripada malam lain...

dimana malam ini aku meluangkan masa bersama jejaka kesayangan sepanjang hayatku...

nama manja dipanggil papa...

dikala seronok berbual bersama rakan papa yang diberi nama abang mat giant, abg ha lurus, abg aimi, abg azhar dan abg cekgu faizal...

secara tetiba kami dipertontonkan dari sudut celah-celah pagar yang bercross seperti dibawah...

satu pergaduhan sepasang kekasih yang agak extreme buat ku...

dari sudut pandangan kami.... yang terang dan berlakunya pergaduhan itu ditepi jalan dimana lampu jalan yang malap menemani mereka....

tetapi aku amat takut melihat adegan tersebut... kerana berlakunya tumbukan bertubi serangan dari pihak gadis... yang badannya tak kecil dan tak besar melampau... dan si jejaka ok la rupa paras tubuhnya... serangan berlaku dan ditambah dengan sepak teranjang....

tidak cukup ngan itu ada juga serangan tamparan berlaku yang di hayunkan oleh si gadis kepada si jejaka...

si jejaka biarkan saja semua itu berlaku dan hanya elak sedikit.... setelah berlakunya kekiri dan kekanan serangan dari si gadis...

secara tetiba.. gadis di heret dan serangan bertukar pihak pada si jejaka.... padangan bertambah kabur pabila si jejaka membalas serangan kerana jejaka bijak mengatur serangan supaya tidak diperlihat oleh mata-mata kami yang duduk lebih kurang seberang jalan... dan halangan kami untuk kesana adalah pagar dawai besi warna hijau...

agak teruk juga serangan yang dibalas kerana si gadis terjatuh beberapa kali ke jalan tar... makna tak nya si gadis belasah si jejaka dengan tamaparan, balingan selipar, tendangan, lutut ke perut... siku... giler la...!!!! seramm!!!!!

lama juga aksi mereka kami tontonkan.. sehingga tak senang duduk lah.. tapi kami bersabar tengok apa akan jadi... hampir setengah jam semua ini berlaku... akhirnya kami cuba alihkan padangan kami... dan pasangan kekasih itu masuk kekenderan mereka dan berlalu pergi....

apakah agaknya kesudahan mereka...!!!!

menakutkan...!!!!

*para gadis perlukah anda bersikap sedemikian.... ya ampun tolong jangan terlampau emosi ikutkan perasaan untuk memukul atau menghentam orang sebagai satu penyelesaian.... kudrat seorang gadis berbanding seorang jejaka amat jauh skali untuk kita tandingi..... gadis hanya mampu untuk mempertahankan buat masa jangaka pendek untuk cari jalan untuk lari... tapi jangan lah jadi heroin untuk meyerang dan menamatkan adegan2 seperti kes di atas....

jangan lah tempah jalan yang salah buat diri sendiri...!!!!

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family oh family.....

2011-01-21T19:05:00.000-08:00

while im enjoying life..

i dunno what is my family thinking about it...

it has been hectic for me to be in my new working life...

i dont understand how to manage my time with all the chores..

but i still can do it..

but still i dont understand what i need to understand...!!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

life ups and downs

2011-01-19T23:45:00.000-08:00

right now in this moment..

i can feel that i have my ups and down life....

i have to take the challenge because if not i know that i wont be strong..

whatelse can i do more...

i only can pray the best....

i care and love my beloved once...

i want them to be happy....

but i have to be happy too....

i love them so much....

i want them to believe in me that i will obey on whatever they said...

but sometime i confused myself....

i wish i can be strong all the time....

and i want to be strong all the time....

i know whenever people advise me..

they love and care bout me...

just that me... im too manje...!!!!

i have to be strong...!!!

really strong to survive...!!!!

i love you, you, you, you, you!!!!

i love you so much...!!!!!!

LOVE HIM!

2011-01-09T18:14:00.001-08:00

To love someone, you need to love them back.... But how do you love them OnLy they can feel it... So when you love someone be sincere with them... and up To them on how to put the judgement....

My love life now is really BOOM... everyday and everytnight is just like the first day or first week we are together.... we have jokes, laughing, falu-falu and so on.... but sometime we have a small cat dog fight to make things clear between each other......

I may look aggresive but in my heart it is to soft... i can cry and cry when it come about love.... Yes I have cry for his love... I cry and I cry and I cry.... I cry for everyweek....

But i cry becuase he loves to create jokes until i start laughing until i try of happiness....

( he is so wonderful)

sometimes i feel sad.. i can feel very sad and cry to.... i cry and i cry.. I cry because i didnt not dream of him in my sleep... but i cry without tears.... But actually when i woke up Im happy back... Cause to hear his voice is the best thing ever as my Vitamin...!!!

( again he is so wonderful )

I can just smile when i think about him....

to many seconds with have spend together... I dont know where is he.. but i know when the time is right both of us will always have the same time to text each other in the same second....!!!!

( now he is unpredictable wonderful )

we can just talk things so honestly... without feeling worngs and right about the past... because i know he wants the best for the future.... the past may be the lesson but the future is the memory last..!!!!

I dont think so i will share this case with any other boyfriends... but i do with him...

( he is my comfort Zone)

Everyday, everynight, everysecond, there are memories between us... i know im a bit forgetful about it... but he have the strong memories bout it... and i know this time around i choose the GUY thats damn worthy... i dont want to lose him... but will he tolarate with me....???

(Im worried Mr.Nice guy will thing im taking advantage, but i have be honest)

But I LOVE HIM SO MUCH..!!! TO THE MAX...!!!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

itulah saya..!!!!

2011-01-08T10:23:00.000-08:00

Saya minta maaf sebab saya dah cakap goodnight tapi saya tak terus tidur....

so saya pura-pura imagine awak dah tidur tapi awak pun pura-pura dah tidur sebab awak taw saya nak buat ucapan khas ni....!!!!

" awak saya dikenali sebagai sangat happy-go-lucky... saya tak suka stress-stress.. saya suka hari-hari saya diwarnai dengan gelak tawa... walaupun benda tu tak lawak sangat tapi kadang-kadang saya over.... maaf lah kalau awak tak suka... awak tegur ea kalau tak suka...."

" awak saya ni kalau jumpa kawan yang satu kepala... memang hilang lah ayu saya... hehehe.... awak kalau boleh tegur lah saya suruh saya cover-cover sebab saya nak jadi kekasih awak yang ayu-ayu and malu-malu.... hehehehe... itupun kalau boleh.... hahahaha...."

" awak saya ni kuat makan taw kalau stress... sebab itu je cara saya nak naikkan level energy gelak tawa saya and ceriakan diri... saya harap awak tak kisah lah... awak boleh komgsi ngan saya.. sebab sharing kan caring macam kita lah kan.. kan awak...!!!!"

" awak jangan lah bosan kalau tengok movie ngan saya.. sebab saya kadang-kadang lumpy sangat.... and saya tak sabar nak taw ending.. sebab saya tak suka berdebar-debar lah.... tapi berdebar-debar lah seronokkan baru suprise..... awak pandai-pandai lah ea buat cerita supaya saya percaya... baru saya tak banyak tanya...."

" awak saya kalau seronok bercakap awak layankan je lah ea... sebab kalau awak tak layan nanti mesti saya pun tak taw nak cakap ngan sape.. mula la saya nak senyap je and fikir benda-benda yang memeningkan kepala... ishh..... awak je la yang taw sampai apa awak nak cakap pun saya boleh in advance sebut dulu... hehehe..... saya suka..!!! rasa geram!!! tapi suka dan sayang!!!!"

"awak saya kalau dah start gelak aduh.... urat kerongkong, urat belikat, urat saraf semua mula kembang-kembang dibuatnya..... pantang sebut je mula satu badan vibrate kalau saya gelak dalam keadaan silent mode.... hehehehee.... awak jangan terasa ea kalau saya gelak lebih-lebih..... semua tu terapi untuk awet muda sayang..... "

"awak kalau saya asyik call awak... tapi awak tak suka jangan lah sampai tak angkat or anythink... awak bagitaw lah ea... saya takut satu hari nanti awak rimas sebab saya asyik call awak je... setiap jam nak call je...."

" awak sorry kalau saya degil sangat suka je berkepit dengan awak... saya tak kesah kalau awak tak suka kepit hari-hari awak bagitaw lah.. tapi saya suka.. cuma saya buat mana yang mampu.... awak pun taw kan yang saya akan buat apa yang saya mahu...!!! tapi awak jangan lah manjakan saya sangat...."

" awak saya terharu sangat waktu awak checking saya hari tu..... awak ambil berat tentang saya.. saya teraru giler awak..... saya rasa amat teramat di sayangi dan disayangi setiap saat...!!!!"

" awak.. awak ni sangat berharga taw..... awak boleh tak awak jadi segalanya untuk saya...!!!!! awak lah alat-alat hiasan untuk kecantikan saya, awak lah bahan-bahan kesihatan saya, awak lah motivasi hidup saya, awaklah panduan matlamat hidup saya, awaklah makanan dan minuman harian saya, awaklah masa hidup saya, awaklah pelindung saya di dunia, awaklah bahan entertainment harian saya, awaklah internet bergerak saya, awak lah awak lah semuanya...!!!!???? Sudi tak awak?...."

" awak sudi tak.....????"

"saya tanya je.... saya bagi taw awak je.... saya seronok dengan apa yang saya lakukan.... saya tak mengharap yang lebih-lebih tapi ini yang saya lakukan seikhlas yang mungkin..... kejujuran yang melampau telah saya curahkan... semua terserah pada awak untuk nilai kebaikan dan eburukan buat diri awak..... saya minta maaf sangat2 kalau saya ada terkasar bahasa dengan awak.... saya tak plan nak buat macam tu kat awak..... awak maafkan saya ea kalau ada...!!!!"

" awak sudi tak....???? awak fikirkan ea...."

"saya serious!!!! semua yang saya coretkan ni setulus ikhlas dari hati saya...!!!!"

"tapi awak ingat taw.. saya kuat bebel, saya kuat makan, saya kuat merengek, saya kuat tidur.... tapi saya TAK kuat kalau awak mula hilang fokus kat saya.... sebab saya amat menyayangi awak...!!!! saya ingin ceriakan hari-hari awak.... walaupun saya ni kuat moody sometimes... tapi awak pernah rasa happy and ceria dari saya kan.....!!!!!

........................................................Terima kasih banyak-banyak sebab awak TRUST saya, and saya harap TRUST kita bersama akan maintain and HONEST kita akan buat we become stronger...!!!! Challenge akan datang tapi we can hold each other hand and face it together for the ONE love, ONE target, ONE soul, ONE all in ONE...!!!!!......................................................

"KALI INI SAYA SANGAT SERIOUS!!!! INI KATA SAYA PADA AWAK!!!!"

surf.life.love.matters.

2011

2011-01-01T22:16:00.000-08:00

The New Year Dinner Celebration with my family was so great.....

We start our New Year with entertain our stomach with delicious and property food...

Thanks to Papa for always bring our family to beautiful and lovely places for the family..!!!!!

Few picture to be share during the night out...!!!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

;)

2010-12-31T22:56:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year to All....

Speccially dedication to my family yang saya sayangi sangat.. Mtay this new year will makes us more merrily and happily together walaupun many things have to be arrange... but im always grateful to have my papa yang suka bebel and giler2.. mama yang senyap tapi suka berjalan2... imran yang malas tapi suka akan kestyloan dan kepoyoan... and me yang kini hobi membebel dan kuat berkerja....!!!! hehehe......

to my Lover yang suka buat saya giler disetiap masa.. yang suka buat saya giler bayang dimana-mana, suka buat saya merindui dan dirindui... jangan lah putus asa untuk menaikkan prestasi hubungan kita OK... kerana hari-hari tanpa awak mungkin tiada mimpi indah buat saya...!!!!!

to My friends.... Im still me for this new year.. but lets have some improvement... forget the past and remember it as a lesson... no matter what life must go on.. there is so many to catch on... wake up from dreaming and start working it up... dont be sad and stressful try to find the best way to be success...!!!! my silent doesnt mean im forgetting you... but just not the right time to spend time with you guys...!!!!

to my srudents... I hope we going to work the best together as im your teacher and your are my students... i hope we will be the best for everybody... im just loving to teach nowadays and you students are my motivation to teach for the next coming days.....

to my cats Meow2.... jangan lah notty2.. petang2 jangan main kat parking oK... banyak kete nanti terlanggar dah jadi macam comel.... i dont want to lose more cats.. cause meow2 you are the sweetest pets i have to bebel around if im not in mood to talk to nobody....!!!!

to my Red Speedy... This year is going to be a working year for us... you will always be with me... so i want you to always be prepare to travel always with me...!!!

to my freetime... we will not have much freetime nowadays because i have decide to workhard now... before i have spent so many time with you free time... i hope you understand and freetime when we meet i hope it going to be a good one..!!!!

to my Bad and Good mood.... i always want good mood for the whole year.. but i know bad mood will get jeleous if only i entertain good mood... to bad mood please dont make me feel bad always.. you can visit me but please make it a short visit because im scared bad mood and me will cause trouble to others.....

hhmm......

New Year 2011 will be a great year for me... because i believe in being positive and motivate we can achieve what we hope for...!!!!

Weeeeeeee.................!!!!!!!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

lovely~

2010-12-31T07:40:00.000-08:00

happy.... haaaappppyyyyy...... hhhhhhhhaaaaaaaappppppppyyyyyyyyyyy..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

29 September 2010

2010-12-30T21:48:00.000-08:00

on this date i have received an email from you.....

and the message that i received is so important for me....

today i have read again the important notes that you send to me....

it have been three months we are to go...

oh yes... i can see that this message is 98% true about you...!!!!!

but... after three month only i read this message again..

and most of the answer i found in you...!!!!

Ya ampun... Rasa terharu untill tears want to drop....

i have never feel like this....

and you must be really wonderful for making me feel like this in just a blink...!!!!

"He is possessive to everything's that he thinks belong to him. Don't try to talk to another cute guy in front of him, he will get suspicion because he is not very secure or confident in
himself for this kind of competition."

Now , i take note about this my dear sayang, but don't worry i have been so honest to you on everything i do... i just dont want to lose my trust on you... and i really really not good in cheating....

In the beginning, you and him will be so sugary sweet together and he will only think of you. This so "super romantic" will not last forever, so don't slip this chance. If you are the one
who want his interest, then act and make yourself interesting. Be a supportive person and give him compliment sometimes, but not too much till he thinks you are not sincere.

Oh, i should be worry in this case now.... are you sure we only going to be sweet in the early stage???? i dont want cuz i want you to be sweet all the time.. if we are meant together, i only want your the man who always make me feel sweet and lovely beside you sayang...!!!!

Im sorry, sometime my mood change in a moment... but you know i change its not because of you... i change because something in my mind is disturbing... Trust me i also want to be with you always... but when the time is right we will have the wonderful time together.... OK...!!!!

She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth
senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.

My part.... i dont know that this is in my email... which this is also true about me... when we always have things in common.... biar lah jauh atau dekat ada je benda yang kita buat almost the same kan.....????

Theres more but let me keep in to myself and i know you know what is the best between both of us...!!!!!

Loving you is my priority...!!!!

surf.life.love.matters.

questions for you....????

2010-12-25T21:21:00.000-08:00

will you remember what is my full name?

will you remember how i really need you?

will you be the one that catch my love?

will you say things that make feel me good?

will you smile at me even im i cant smile at you?

are you sure that im the one for you, now and forever?

are you mad, if i dont have enough time for you for a day?

are you gonna find me if i have been silent for a day?

are you sad if i didnt talk to you for a day and just dissapear?

what do you feel, when im with my friend with out you?

what do you think, when im to busy with someone else problem?

what do you do, if im with you but im so silent?

what you want to tell me if im so sad on the day we meet?

when i miss you so much, what do you feel?

when i almost cry because too long never talk and meet you, you feel it too?

when im with you but you dont talk to much with me, is it ok?

when i want to be with you, but we are busy, what should we do?

in the future...........

will we discuss things in proper way for our happiness?

when im too tired will we have a good communication that time?

if i sleep too long for the day, am i already becoming a bad partner for you?

or what will happen if im a bit late because i didnt finish my work on time?

urghh.... i just dont want to break your heart more and more....

i cant be perfect but i want too...

i hope you will understand my situation...

i just care too much about you...

and you is what i always worried about.....

i hope you can see and feel...

im too sincere in loving you..

and thats why sometime ada ketinggian suara berlaku among us...

that is because i cant lose you because im stuck everything in you....

Insyaallah all our prayer will be answer...

and we will be strong in loving each other..

and we are together because we believe in each other...

and we know both weakness ad strength....

what ever im weak i hope you can always guide me..

and i will always listen and try my best to follow and obey...

and you too...

Im here to accpet anything that i did wrong.....

and i want me and you to be a great partner....

so ourselves and our family will trust on what we do...!!!!!

* im sorry becoming a bit emotional because too much thinking about how wonderful if i can see my future... and erase the weakness so that everything will be perfect.... but i know we can be strong when we are together and for each other...!!!

LOBE MY W.M.A.

only YOU!

2010-12-19T14:42:00.000-08:00

Now its early morning during im writing this entry blog....

i just realise that since few month back i love to write about what is really i want...

i caught a love that it is save with me now....

tapi lets share some of what I have been thinking of...

Awak dulu saya sering jenguk awak and selalu ingin bersama awak..

waktu tu awak ingat saya terlalu free dan awak destinasi saya....

saya harap saya tak menganggu awak waktu tu....

saya bukan saja nak hadir dalam hidup awak..

saya pun tak taw yang awak akan wujud dalam hidup saya..

tapi awak semua ini tak pernah terlambat kan.....

Awak waktu saya kenali awak dulu, saya mungkin agak berbeza..

awak pun taw waktu tu kita biasa-biasa je...

walaupun biasa0biasa saya concern kat awak..

tapi concern biasa-biasa je sebab waktu tu siapalah kita berdua kan?

but that was before sayang.....

awak dulu kalau telefon saya, macam-macam kita kongsi....

sampai lebam telinga saya, fikir macam mana nak end call ngan awak!

but that was before.. Now sayang, rasa macam tak nak end call je ngan you..!!!!!

Awak ingat lagi waktu saya jarang tegur awak di online...

awak sibuk tegur saya di online....

and sejak kemudian saya mula ketagih untuk online kerana awak disitu....

lama-kelamaan ada sesuatu yang menunggu dan kini saya taw apa dia....

Awak lah sayang saya yang sangat misteri selama ini..!!!!

Sayang, sayang... sekarang ini lah panggilan khas buat awak...

saya harap awak suka...

awak kadang-kadang emosi saya terganggu...

saya tahu mana ada teman yang ingin kan gadis yang kasar dan giler...

tapi awak kadang-kadang saya giler sebab saya sendiri tak boleh control...

dan saya kasar kadang-kadang terlampageram kat awak...

dulu tak de sebab saya nak geram and giler kat awak..!!!!

Sayang oh sayang,

sekarang hari-hari boleh telefon you dah...

tiap minggu asyik bertemu je....

tiap minggu ada gurau senda...

tapi sayang jangan lah amik hati or kecik hati,

if saya ada pekara yang lebih penting untuk selesaikan...

itupun kerana saya belajar untuk berdikari

tak mahu nanti satu hari terlampau manja mahukan semua awak yang lakukan..

sayang you are the best... you treat me the best...!!!!

sayang, sayang..!!! SAAAAYYYAAANNNGGGG....

Im so sorry if sometime saya tak reti nak cakap phone sweet-sweet dengan awak

saya try, tapi saya nak awak rasa the best thing from me.....

saya harap awak takkan marah and simpan-simpan...

please sayang if theres anything awak bagitaw saya ok....

kita can always talk and discuss....

itu lah sayang,

selama saya bersayang-sayang dengan awak...

saya tak kesah pun awak comot ke comel..

sebab saya pun selalu comot and kadang-kadang comel....

saya tak kesah kalau awak curi padang saya..

sebab saya pun selalu curi padang awak...

saya tak kesah kalau awak suka cubit saya..

sebab itu buat saya rasa rindu....

saya tak kesah kalau kita suka benda yang sama..

sebab benda tu buat saya ingat awak selalu...

saya tak kesah awak suka spicy food...

tapi saya boleh makan juga, tapi sikit-sikit je la....

saya tak kesah pun kalau macam mana..

sebab saya akan selalu bersama awak....

tapi satu je benda yang saya kesah.....

awak jangan lah sunyi secara tetiba...

sebab benda tu saya tak pernah rasa...

saya taknak rasa...!!!!

awak jangan menghilangkan diri...

sebab saya takut seorang diri....

awak jangan lah silent sebab nanti siapa nak layan mulut potpetpot saya...

awak.. awak.. you are so important to me now..!!!!

you can easily give me a smile face everyday....

and you can make me warm when im cold....

you can just make me laugh eventho im tired and moody.....

You are my special addicted alien that tak boleh cari tempat lain...

and Am i a special alien for you too....????

surf.life.love.matters.

remind me of you everywhere..!!!!

2010-12-19T06:24:00.000-08:00

during our early love...

we always mention we create love everywhere....

yeah in this week its really killing me when you keep remember all the sweet thing...

and i do remember it too... even I tried not too...

but i cant... because it is too sweet until almost things around me is YOU..!!!!

how could i just forget about you easily in a SECOND...!!!!

TAK BOLEH..!!!! TAK MAW...!!! IM SO CRAZY OVER YOU...!!!!

I dont like to be crazy like this.... but it is not bad when it is crazy about you...

because having the smile and thinking abut you all the time is wonderful....

specially biler dapat melayang jauh sikit about you and me...

its like.. weeeee... weeeee............

.Picture of the day.

surf.life.love.matters.

bangun pagi....

2010-12-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

.saya masih mahukan awak.

.ketika memandu melepasi kawasan awak.

Selamat Pagi awak,

Awak maafkan saya semalam saya amat merindu awak sehingga saya menitiskan air mata kerana rindu, tapi kalau awak tak suka lain kali saya tak buat lagi, itu pun saya tak berani nak janji saya boleh cuba......

Awak malam tadi saya susah nak tidur walaupun saya dah cuba... sebab saya rindu kat awak sangat.... tapi lama-lama saya tertidur gak dan awak muncul dalam mimpi.... kalau awak tak suka lain kali saya suruh mimpi tu jangan datang itu

pun kalau mimpi tu nak ikut cakap saya.....

Awak sekarang saya dah bangun tidur dan pekara pertama saya buat text awak... kemudian saya tulis blog ni... Awak saya minta maaf sangat kalau awak tak suka... ini semua sebab saya rindu kat awak... awak tak suka ke awak suka? kalau awak tak suka... saya cuba untuk bagitaw rindu jangan buat saya macam ni..... itu pun kalau rindu nak ' go away' sebab dia susah untuk pergi dan tinggal kan saya.....

Awak saya seriously rindu kat awak sangat...!!!!!

Sorry saya kena bagitaw kat awak sebab, saya tak feel rind

u kat orang lain.... Saya feel rindu kat awak.....

.Awak masih Ingat tak?.

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I stuck on you

2010-12-18T12:13:00.000-08:00

i just feel like don't want to end the day...

because i was having good time...

and i realise that tomorrow is waiting...

and i have to move on for next day...

i want to make a wish...

may all my day will be as good as today.....

yeah.... i know im going to miss today on my quality time with you...!!!!

='( bubbye today......

Hello tommorow!

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i want my drug!

2010-12-14T03:28:00.000-08:00

it has been one two three four days.....

this is crazy... never happen before...

and its happening...

kini sudah tidak tahan....

perlu bertemu kamu...!!!!

Bersiap untuk ke kamu...!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...............................!

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i read it somewhere...!!!!

2010-12-14T03:22:00.000-08:00

Ya Tuhanku,Kalau dia memang jodohku,dekatkanlah…

Tapi kalau dia bukan jodohku,jodohkanlah…

Dan jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku,

maka jadikanlah kami berjodoh..

Ya Tuhanku,Kalau dia bukan jodohku,

jangan sampai dia mendapatkan jodoh yang lain,selain aku seorang…

Kalau dia tidak bisa dijodohkan denganku,

jangan sampai dia mendapatkan jodoh yang lain,

biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti aku…

Dan pada saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh,

jodohkanlah kami kembali…

Ya Tuhanku,Kalau dia jodoh orang lain,putuskanlah!

Jodohkanlah dengan ku…Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain,

biarkanlah orang itu bertemu jodoh dengan yang lain dan kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku…

Ya Tuhanku,kabulkanlah doa dan permohonan hambamu ini…

Amin…

Diambil dari milis tetangga (kabinetnolpatnollima)

http://dhimaskasep.wordpress.com/2007/08/13/doa-mencari-jodoh/

**I Took it somewhere and i find it nice to share with everybody.. when you loe someone, and you really love... you just want them so much right... Insyaallah...!!!!!

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promise!!!!

2010-12-13T06:28:00.000-08:00

I can't promise you a perfect relationship. I can't promise you we'll never fight. I can't promise you I won't get jealous. But I can promise you it will be worth it. I can promise you I will make you happy. I will make you proud to say I'm your girl. & I can promise you a good time every time every time we're together. Just keep your word & I'll keep mine. Promise.

Love,

Syazwana.

.credit to Akram.

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challenge comes....

2010-12-06T22:49:00.000-08:00

sometimes this is what you think about being fair and not fair......

but you are nobody to said it fair or not fair....

the feeling will kill you for saying it is fair and it is not fair.....

here comes my part after your part....

it maybe easy on your part and difficult in my part...

but dont worry i will do my part cause you had already done your part...

i will try to prove that is my choice....

and will answer all the questions that plays in their mind.....

this is what challenge me for what i want...

and this makes me stronger.. i hope you will be stronger too...

because you are my back bones....!!!!

honestly....

everything about you and me i have done the best..

and i know you had be the best for me too.....

but now we have to do a lot of sharing so we know whats going on.....

smile is the great medicine of ALL...!!!!

dont stop make me smile everywhere.....!!!!!

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curi hati awak!

2010-11-24T17:36:00.000-08:00

Ini lah yang saya lakukan....

Awak dapat rasakan?

saya nak awak sebati dalam diri saya...!!!!

sebab tu kita selalu buat perkara yang lebih kurang sama.!!!!

This is for real...

No time to Joke anymore...

we have make a step that to show we are serious..!!!

Im watching you, so do you watching me...!!!

Yeah..!!! Im in LOVE..!!!!

Should i mention to whom im in love...????

NO right...!!!!

because you should no Mr. Lover..!!!

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siapa dia?

2010-11-23T22:11:00.000-08:00

Awak.. awak....

Terima Kasih awak teman saya pada konsert tu...

Terima Kasih awak jemput saya datang studio awak..

Terima Kasih awak simpan handphone saya yang tertinggal...

Terima Kasih awak kita date makan malam for the first time....

Terima Kasih awak sebab tak si-sia kita selalu chat....

Terima Kasih awak sebab awak activate Facebook balik...

Terima Kasih awak ganggu saya dengan panggilan awak...

Terima Kasih awak kerana sudi kongsi cerita ngan saya...

Terima Kasih awak percaya kat saya hari demi hari..

Terima Kasih awak kerana beri saya ruang untuk berluah..

Terima Kasih awak bagi bahu awak untuk saya titiskan air mata....

Terima Kasih awak kerana pimpin saya waktu gelap.....

Terima Kasih awak care biler saya rasa dingin waktu awak rasa suam....

Terima Kasih awak banyak-banyak sebab sekarang awak bagi banyak Kasih kat saya....

Tapi AWAK......

saya minta maaf if ada benda yang kurang kan saya....

saya cuba be the best for you....

saya nak buat awak tersenyum selalu....

saya nak sebut benda sama time awak nak sebut...

saya nak kita pakai baju sama walaupun kita tak plan....

saya nak kita buka tingkap di saat kita tak pandang satu sama lain....

saya nak kita tunjuk benda yang sama pada hal time tu saya tak tahu apa yang awak fikir..

saya nak kita bersama... saya amat terharu sangat dengan apa yang kita lakukan....

AWAK......

Kita pray for the best in what we do OK.... and i believe what im doing for what i Want....

I hope we will be able to share everything... and we will have more fun and funny conversation together... because kalau kita senyap pun kita masih sama.... :)

H.O.L.L.A.N.D!!!!!!

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Destination~

2010-11-17T02:29:00.000-08:00

Today have been a great aidil Adha celebration in place that i never thought im going to be....

specially thanks to my beloved papa and mama for putting the trust to just let me explore more about where i want to go and to be with....

it is about a week im spending most of my time with who i want to be with..... please pray the best for me in to be with who i want to be....

it was a pleasure suprise from who i want to be with... how dare am i to take this challenge in life... but i wont not regret because i have a wonderful oppurtunity in life to be with who i want to....

it took me a lot of sweat to be really brave and put myself in this shoe right now... because the one that i want to be with was really a gentleman he win my heart so much.... and now its reveal im here in the place where who i want to be with, with his family......

awak thanks a lot sebab invite saya datang... sangat tidak sia-sia bila saya ada kat sini.. eventhough kita berpeluh giler and sampai pening pale tapi awak ni semua kita buat demi kitakan... how i appreciate you so much for what you have done... saya harap awak akan jaga saya and saya juga akan jaga awak yang terbaik sebab saya giler takot to lost you.... and dear... your family is great.. to be continue..

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me!!!!

2010-11-16T03:14:00.000-08:00

im crazy enough to be carzy..

i mean CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!

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so sweet....

2010-11-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

found it somewhere... and nice to share....!!!

read it..!!!!

Alkisahnya…aku nih ditakdirkanlah kawin dengan sorang mamat nih..ntah dari mana la datangnya…mak aku yang suruh..dia kata budak nih baik la alim la pandai la..lepas tu terus kami kawin.

Masa first time kawin tu, memang kucar kacir gak arr rumah tangga kami..dan yang aku paling tak tahan tu dia memang selalu saja buat aku sakit hati…Eiiiii…geramnya aku!!!

Mana taknya,aku basuh baju dia sekali la ngan baju aku..then lepas basuh..nak jadi cerita..ada lah plak baju dia yang turun warna melekat kat baju aku….haihhh..memang sakit hati…baju baru kot…mahal lagi!!! Then bila aku tanya dia..kenapalah tak bagitau aku yang baju dia ada yang turun warna..dengan slumber dia kata.

”Lah..awat tak tanya…”Eiii..geramnya aku!!!

Selang beberapa hari, dia ada ajak aku pi shopping.Ok,fine..aku ikut jer la…weekend la katakan. Lepas tu nak jadi cerita, dia punyalah excited nak pi shopping..sampai aku kalih kalih belakang..HILANG!!..

Aku cari gak dekat dekat area situ kot kot ada tapi memang hampeh…Aku try call, tak angkat..call lagi pon tak angkat..huhh..tension betul!! Then, aku amik keputusan tunggu kat kereta jer..seminit,..lepas tu dua minit,… lepas tu….SEJAM KOT!! Huhh..memang sakit hati betul!! Then bila dia mai dekat kereta, aku tanya, pegi mana? kenapa call tak angkat??!! Yang aku tak tahan, dia dengan slumber jawab..

“Lah..gi shopping la sayang…owh..ada call ekk?? Alah..lupa nak bagi tau…terlupa bawa hanset..hehe..”

Eiiii..geramnya aku!!!!

Seminggu lepas tuh..dia kata teringin nak makan masak ayam berempah dengan masak lemak cili api.. ok..fine…aku masak jer…Tapi memang la aku nih tak la pandai masak sangat…tapi bolehlah klu setakat nak makan kan..aku hidang bagi dia makan…Masa first time dia suap kat mulut tuh…Aku bajet dia nak kata apa-apa..Tapi dia diam..Memang tak kata apa-apa pon sampai dia habis makan..Habis makan pon tak kata apa..

Aku pon confius…dia ni no respond..sedap ka tak?? Hmm..klu ikut aku la..orang yang masak ni la kan…aku rasa ok jah lah..tapi tak tau la orang yang makan nak kata apa..huhhh…..

Esok plak, time aku on the way nak balik dari tempat keje, kereta aku plak wat hal..tak boleh start..panik gak arr aku time tuh..malam dah nih..nak masuk Isyak dah…haihh..time aku balik keje lewat2 lah keta nak wat hal..then, aku call dia…

Yang aku tak boleh tahan tu..dia dengan slumber kata..“Lah awat la call saya…call la mekanik…ingat call saya keta awak bleh jalan??….”

Eiii…geramnya aku!!!Tapi…dia mai jugak lepas tuh…ada lah dia check apa ntah kt depan bonet tuh…dan lepas start…terus boleh…hmmm.. dalam hati…aku kata,

“bleh la jugak mamat nih nak diharap…mekanik kecil-kecilan, janji free”…

Satu hari, dia ada bagitau yang dia kena pi outstation kat overseas. Dia kata pi kejap jah…2 MINGGU!!..hmm..aku memang no komen lah…dia nak pi buat keja dia…takkan nak kata tak boleh kot…keja arkitek… biasalah… busy la kot…

Tapi..memang agak sakit hati jugak lah..bleh dia lesap macam tu jah..lepas2 naik flight....kot2 la nak call bagitau dah sampai ka..ada kat mana ka…tapi memang hampeh!!..langsung dia tak call!! Kot2 la nak bagi emel ka..tapi memang tak dak…kosong inbox!!Eiii…geramnya aku!!!

Pagi tuh..aku basuh baju…ok..sekarang aku dah taw dah baju mana yang turun warna…aku ambik satu persatu dalam bakul nak basuh..sampai la aku jumpa bungkusan misteri dekat bahagian bawah baju-baju tuh…jeng3..huishh..siap dengan surat lagi..

Suratnya berbunyi begini:kehadapan isteriku (cewahhh..),

Semoga berada dalam keadaan yang sihat sentiasa…jangan marah-marah ek..hehe..Saya bukannya apa…saja tulih surat nih..bosan…tak tau nak buat apa…hihi

Pertama sekali…saya nak bagi tau lah..mungkin awak tak kenal saya..tapi saya kenal jer awak…sejak awak darjah 6 lagi kot!! Haha..eh..awak tak ingat ka anak Pak Mail kawan ayah awak yang mai beraya kat umah awak time tuh??!! …Masa tuh..saya nampak awak dok main masak-masak kat belakang umah…hahaha…memang sangat lucu…saya nampak awak macam 'anak patung'..comel sangat…Ishkk..awak ni..tak berasan ker??

Keduanya, sori la pasal hal shopping tuh..memang saja jer saya tak mau bawa hanset time tuh…hihi..takot terkantoi…yer la…saya pi cari baju awak kot!! Ingat baju yang awak kata terkena warna tuh?? Huh…memang tension..susah btul nak cari..memang patut la mahal dan memang patot la awak bengang satu hari…hihi…

Ketiganya, pasal ayam berempah dengan masak cili api yang awak masak…hmm…mesti awak bengang kan sebab saya no respond…huhu…sebab SEDAPPPP SAAANGAT sampai saya jadi tak terkata…Eh, saya makan dalam masa 5 minit ja kot..ikut jam dinding kat umah kita…

Ishkk..awak ni..tak berasan ker??

Keempatnya…time keta awak rosak…hmm..awak tau tak saya CANCELLLL appointment saya dengan klien penting dari overseas sebab nak pi kat awak??!! Lepas2 tuh..jenuh saya nak pujuk diorang balik…Tau tak saya langgar smua traffic light merah!! Baju saya basah dengan peluh masa saya sampai kat awak??

Ishkk..awak ni..tak berasan ker??

Tapi lepas saya tahu saya kena pi outstation kt overseas..saya lagi seronok…happy glerr..sebab saya tau awak mesti rinduuu kat saya kan..kan2?? Saya memang saja jer tak call awak…hihi…tapi saya ok jah…saya rasa saya dah sampai dah kot lepas awak baca surat nih…

“Wow,look at the gopen_hagen tower!! Fuyoo!!! Cantik giler!! “Hahahahahaaaaaaaa..jangan jeles..(^-^)

Last but not least…awak..awak jangan nakal-nakal ekk…sebab saya saaaaayang awak… bukan tak nak ajak gi ober c.... just gie ipoh ajer.... lalu kat gopen_hagen...

P/S: Try tengok sama x dengan baju awak yang rosak ari tu “bungkusan” nih…hihi

luvsuami mu... dunia akhirat

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is tears everything for me

2010-11-09T18:46:00.000-08:00

sot set sot set.....

ni lah habit saya biler saya rasa sedih happy marah and everything.....

i have many thngs in mind to write and share...

but when i think again its to personal,

so i decided to keep it to myself....

...............................................................

Pray the best for everything I do...... i just dont want to hurt no one and if i did im sorry im just learning how to live... and i will never be perfect.. but i always try the best to live in this world...!!!!

im Sorry..!!!!!
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AWAK!

2010-11-05T09:33:00.001-07:00

awak...
saya taw awak lebih kurang saya....
apa yang awak buat saya pun buat..
tapi semua tu secara kebetulan..
tapi sekarang makin hari makin bersama..
we are almost the same...

bila saya penat kerana kerja awak juga....
bila saya geram kat sesuatu awak pun sama juga...
bila saya nak katakan sesuatu awak juga sama....
banyak sangat kita nak sama kan?

tapi yang nak tekan button tingkap sama-sama tu saya tak boleh terima la awak..!!!!

awak... awak... awwwaaakkk...!!!!!!!!!
Thanks buat saya senyum selalu!!!!!!

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2010-11-03T04:15:00.000-07:00

Ich vermisse dich und Ich liebe dich so sehr!

i e dor de tine şi te iubesc atât de mult!

ฉันคิดถึงเธอและผมรักคุณมาก!

i miss you in jaz te ljubim toliko!

ff colli chi a fi cariad 'ch ogystal!

אני מתגעגעת אליך ואני אוהבת אותך כל כך!

私はあなたにミス、私はそれほどあなたを愛しています！

Mi manchi e ti amo così tanto

et te desidero te amo tanto!

anh nhớ em và tôi yêu bạn rất nhiều!

seni özledim ve seni çok seviyorum!

i miss Anda dan saya sangat mencintaimu!

اشتقت لك وأنا أحبك كثيرا!

i miss you eta i love you asko!

Ik mis je en ik hou zoveel van je!

내가 미스와 내가 당신을 너무 사랑 해요!

i miss you at i love you kaya marami!

Hiányzol, és szeretlek téged annyira!

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exhausted!

2010-11-03T03:58:00.000-07:00

im felt so exhausted for this week...

yet this week still not over...

and many delayed work have not done yet....

now im doing my work based on spirit...

cause im out of energy...

all i can do is YES I CAN DO IT...

hope the emotional attitude wont come suddenly and ruin everything...

im doing this because i want to help..

so not much complaint i will said...

but i really pray and hope people will appriciate what i have done....

thru few days of this week i have learned a lot..

eventho i still cant manage my time..

specially to get to my theraphy master!

im sorry this week i have few important appointment to setle down...

i will find some replacement day for you!!!!

I PROMISE!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$ has come out for everyday....

i can see it worthy, but sometime people just dont get it....

'mereka ni suka perlekehkan orang!'

how can i not being mad! because i know how sincere when it come about $$$$$$$$...!!!!

hmmmm.... tapi nak buat macam mana....

****** should get more credit, but ****** yang dapat credit.....

this is the lesson when people easily judge others in a quick second....

tapi sampai bila... kita kena tunjuk juga siapa kita sebenarnya baru lah diaorang hargai.....

Only GOD knows what we have done, and what is the reason we sacrifice so many time for it..!!!!

Insyallah all the benefit will receive for our future together. but if there is not return no regret because GOD knows what is the best for us. Insyaallah.

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